Chapter 42

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Taylor’s Point of view:

Taylor whistled through his teeth, utterly stunned. Of all the things he was expecting to hear, this was the very last. It wasn’t that he was surprised that Christian had gone to such lengths to wreak his special brand of justice, but rather that his employer had not trusted him with this piece of information. Not only was it insanely irresponsible but highly unusual to boot.

He understood, more than most, Christian’s need to put Jose in his place. He was a jealous man himself and fuck knew if someone were to hurt Gail – in any way – he’d have no problems rearranging the fucker’s face even if he had to do the dirty work himself. He was just about to express his grievance when something else occurred to him, something about his boss’ demeanour as he dealt this little security blow made him bite his rather stern tongue. The man was ashamed he realised with a second shock, the unusual sentiment completely out of place in his cool boss’ standard emotional armour of poise and impassiveness.

He wondered briefly what he was ashamed about. Was it the fact that he hired some thug to do his bidding or that he used the violence he found so abhorrent. With Christian you just never knew. Taylor would be the first to admit that in spite of being a smart man himself, keeping up with the guy was virtually impossible, but if he was to hazard a guess he’d bet that – in this instance – it had everything to do with keeping the information hidden. He knew that his boss had to know that if he’d spoken up sooner their investigation would have looked a whole lot different. In fact, now that he thought about it, it rocketed Jose to the top spot on their suspect list. Taylor could never wrap his mind around Jose’s involvement, not at the level they had experienced, but something like this could certainly be enough to push him over the cliff he was already precariously balanced on.

Shit! He thought as new possibilities cut through his mind like hungry sharks through the deep waters of the black ocean. With David dead there was no way to tell who was responsible for what and together with the loose ends that still dangled, taunting him, the notion that they were being chased by two perps was beginning to seem more and more likely.

If it had been any other client he’d have tendered his resignation in two beats of a heart, but for some reason the rare emotional display made it impossible to judge the negligent act from an employee’s point of view. No, he looked to this as he would a friend, a good, close friend that had done something stupid, and now came to him for help. He couldn’t, wouldn’t turn his back on a friend. Despite the professional contract standing between them he had never come across a fairer, more generous man, a man he trusted implicitly and admired exceedingly. He just hoped he could trust his instincts, that this had been a once-off rash, emotionally fuelled decision that had no bearing on Christian’s customary sharp witted choices.

Hell, as far as Taylor was concerned Christian should be running the fucking country never mind the company he’d singlehandedly sent into the stratosphere of success. So he swallowed his angry words, and set his mind to damage control, “Sir how sure are you that this event isn’t traceable back to you?”

Christian regarded him for a long moment, reading him carefully, “I am absolutely positive, and before you ask I can assure you that I’ve not withheld anything else from you, before or since. Ever. This was…” Taylor watched as Christian’s Adam’s apple bobbed down on an agitated swallow, a long fingered hand raking through his perpetually dishevelled hair, “I was in a dark place,” he confided, his tone starkly sober.

Taylor thought Christian was done, and more than a little relieved to hear that the black mark didn’t have to taint the rest of their dealings, but he heard him take a steeling breath before turning that piercing grey gaze back to him. It pinned him and instantly he sensed another confession was coming his way. “On some level I didn’t want it to be Jose, and I’m afraid that it’s clouded my judgement in this situation. Ana is struggling with so much guilt, I was – still am actually,” he issued a mirthless laugh, one that went with a now glassy stare, “terrified that it would be too much for her to handle. That she wouldn’t be able to deal with this on top of everything else. If she bolted again…” he shook his head, returning to a place in his head where he only knew hurt.

Taylor copped the change in Christian’s eyes. It was dramatic and horribly reminiscent. It was the one he saw on the day she left. Like something was torn from them, then replaced with a poor copy of the original. Even though he was a man and supposedly immune to such things he’d give anything not to see that look again. That day his own soul had bled for Christian, the man was in so many pieces. He might not share his employer’s particular tastes in the bedroom but he’d have no qualms about tying Anastasia to a bedpost or something if she ever so much as thought about bailing again. Damn, he thought dismayed, this was a bigger crap fest than he first assumed, and then berated himself firmly. Making assumptions was exactly how you got into a fuck-up like this.

“Sir, just for the sake of clarity and if I have your permission to speak freely,” he waited for a nod from Christian before he continued, “the implications of this are far reaching. This would have changed our whole approach. I’m prepared to take the lead on this one but you need to relinquish the control of it entirely to me. No second guessing, no interfering. I’m sure I don’t have to remind you what is at stake, and we sure as shit can’t afford to make another mistake like this.” He gave Christian a pointed glare, just to reiterate the seriousness of this unfamiliar lapse in his otherwise impeccable record.

“Yes,” Christian answered and from his expression Taylor could tell that he had taken his words on board, and was ready to make the changes needed to see this through. “I understand. You have my full backing and cooperation. Anything you need. I’m too close to this Taylor.” The admission was quiet and low and helluva’ unexpected. It was yet another reason Taylor respected him as much as he did any of his solid army buddies. It took a big man to search himself for flaws and then have the guts to fix them, especially if said person was a control freak that gave all controlling bastards a bad name.

“Thank you sir, I’ll take it from here.” Taylor looked at his clasped hands as they lay on his desk, pondering if he should go for broke and just put it all out there. If ever there was a time it was now he figured. “Sir, one more thing if I may?” He held up a lone finger as he watched his boss’ reaction.

Christian looked up, weary but listening. Taylor decided to take it as a good sign and ploughed on, speaking way out of turn, but he was careful with the choice of his words. “Sir I don’t think you should shield Mrs Grey from this latest development. Her cooperation is vital. If she perceives the threat, especially one related to your son, she’ll be much easier to manage. I’m not saying dump it all in one foul swoop, you might want to feed her bits over time but tell her enough to get her on side.”

Christian’s lips thinned, clearly not enamoured by the idea but Taylor knew that he was more than bright enough to see sense. “Okay,” he breathed. “I’ll talk to her tomorrow.”

If Taylor was prone to showing emotion he‘d let out a sigh of relief but instead he straightened in his chair, easily switching back to the larger issue at hand. “Can we do a quick recap sir? I want to get our men on this ASAP.”

Christian sat back, seemingly relieved that the deep shit was over. “Shoot,” he ordered in a way that somehow underlined his inclination to do what needs to be done.

“Our first port of call should be to restart our timeline. Let’s see if we can separate events. If any of the incidents can be attributed to someone other than David because the way I see it, we’re staring down the barrel of two perps right now.”

“Agreed. It’s clear that the sniper incident and the flowers are connected. Looking at it now the hunting rifle might not have been a decoy like we first thought. It may very well have been the only weapon the perp had access too.”

Taylor watched Christian as he practically jumped from his chair, his agitation levels spiking again. “Fuck!” he spat, his anger directed solely at himself. “I should have paid more attention when Ana brought that up, but David was so damn convenient. I hate second guessing myself but I really screwed up. And she was right about another thing too; I can’t simply will shit to be true no matter how much I want it to be. I need to get my fucking head on straight, I just….” This time both hands tracked a path through his hair as he paced a trench in front of the desk.

Suddenly Christian stopped, again drilling Taylor with that slate stare that now had an edge of desperation to it, “I just wanted to believe that they were safe.”

Taylor knew this routine. He had never known anyone who could be so hard on himself. Christian would beat himself up, muttering about his own incompetence before finding some brilliant solution that saved the day all round. It was ironic that this berating process he went through was the very thing that made him so good at what he did. But Taylor also knew when it was time to take over, and that time was now. It was pointless rehashing it. The last thing he wanted was his boss wallowing in knee deep self-loathing that held him fast like quicksand. Rather he needed him sharp and focussed. Hopefully the baby making would keep him distracted enough to bar him from dwelling on his very uncommon oversight.

“Sir, I can’t sanction your decision but I’ll be damned if I say I didn’t understand it. I hate to point out the obvious but you’re human. Being driven by fear is as instinctive as you can get, and considering the history between you and Mrs Grey…” He let his words trail with a small shrug, knowing that Christian would get the picture anyway.

Christian stared at him for long minutes before he spoke again, “You’re right,” he said, and with that sat back down, composed.

Taylor opened a file that he had stashed nearby, running his trained eye over the information to reacquaint himself with the facts. “The Dom/sub contract and the photo that was leaked to the blog were not in the file your pal lifted from David’s hideout, and without that information, what he did have on your lifestyle was pretty thin. I think it’s safe to say that this also was not his doing otherwise it would have been with the rest of the info.”

Christian nodded, tapping his lips with a finger in thought, “The shooting smacks of Jose though I’m still not convinced that he’s capable of something that drastic even if he knew about the beating. The leaks however points to Lincoln, apart from Ana I don’t see how Jose would have gotten wind of my lifestyle. And in the light of my recent oversight I’m not willing to exclude anything.”

“Understood,” Taylor acknowledged. “We’ll start by following up on the lead from the Bellagio again, whoever sent the flowers must have gotten the tip-off about the wedding from the hotel. I’ll put eyes on Mr Lincoln and Mr Rodriguez, but as far as I know he’s still on location.”

Christian stood up. Without prompt the two men’s gazes met, sharing a look that conveyed both trust and a renewed determination. “Thank you Jason,” Christian said, a flicker of vulnerability perceptible for a scant second before he strode out, leaving Taylor to the tactical strategies that now crowded his mind. Sleeping was going to be damn near impossible with this shit brewing in his head.

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Ana:

If the grim cast of his full mouth and the tense bearing of his shoulders wasn’t enough to clue me in on his dark mood then the depth of annoyance in his eyes did. Straightening against the headboard I watch his determined gate, his strides lengthening with desperation to reach me. Throwing off the covers I scramble from the bed, making myself available to give him the comfort he so obviously needs.

My feet barely touch the ground before he captures me in a crushing embrace, his arms like steel as they lock around me, his frantic heart hammering between us. I feel him burying his face in my neck – inhaling, the swell of his chest pushing us even closer. Taking his lead I wrap my legs around his hips as my hands slip into the soft strands of his hair.

I hold him with the same resignation, eager to prove my willingness even as the first trickling of fear stirs in my belly – unwholesome and unwelcome. “Christian, what’s the matter?” I rasp, breathless from the tight vice of his grip. He replies by simply re-clamping a splayed hand to my back, his fingers digging into my flesh with such force that I feel the slight tremble of them against me.

Everything inside me is screaming for answers, but for now he needs my body more than my words. Banking my questions I surrender to his needs, safe in the knowledge that with my submission the answers will come. Sensing my acceptance he leans over the bed to place me in the centre of it. His heat leaves my body just for the second it takes him to flip off the bedside light, but it gives me enough time to catch the despair marring the usual brilliant grey of his gaze before we’re plunged into darkness. A despair he’s hiding I realize, and also running away from as he settles between my legs, roughly pushing the edge of my short silk slip out of his determined way.

At the barrier of my panties he grunts his annoyance, ripping it away with an impatient tug. I gasp, the burn of the chafing friction quickly forgotten when his raring tongue makes contact with my sensitive sex. I buck into his hot mouth, the shock of sensation sending a sizzling jolt down my legs. Making use of my brief jerk from the bed he spears both hands beneath my ass, grabbing the backs of my thighs. A second later I feel his thumbs applying a firm pressure as they rest just at the edge of my opening.

My breath hitches at his ferocious pace, his tongue insistent, lapping fast and strong as it seeks out that perfect melting spot. There’s no hint of my teasing lover, no slow controlled burn that he takes care not to fan too quickly. No, between my legs I have a fully dressed demon intent on making me come in small fractions of the usual time he would allow.

My hands fist in his hair, restless with my need. As always my body is a slave to him, his long wet licks controlling me just as a stern command in his voice would, and if the ardent lashings of his tongue are anything to go by he’s urging me to follow him blindly down the path of his assaulting seduction. And I do, as he sucks my clitoris into his mouth on the final crest before the wave breaks. With a loud creed ripped from my lips my contracting muscles sends my torso arcing into his face. Fast and hard, I shudder with the violence of my wrenched release.

His ministrations slow, his languid tongue licking in long strokes as I flop back onto the covers. Reaching down I cup his jaw to pull him up to me, my lips grateful and ready for his kiss but he resists, shaking his head between my thighs. “Again,” he rasps as he shifts, evidently readjusting himself for round two as his tongue presses into my entrance.

“I can’t. Too soon,” I pant, my head lolling about as I draw short, shattered breaths. Christian ignores me, with his forearm over my lower abdomen he pins me to the bed to stop me from wriggling away while the fingers of his free hand goes to work between my sodden folds, wringing that overstimulated bundle of nerves with a gentle rub.

One moment I’m squirming, trying to get away from his jolting touch, the next I’m chasing another orgasm with a renewed, single minded focus. He knows just how to get me there, those clever fingers going round and round, teasing, never coming close enough to that swollen bud as it pluses, now aching for his touch.

The shallow penetration of his tongue is sinfully arousing, taunting as it circles just inside me, gathering the wet flow of my desire. He groans; the sound vibrating against my flesh. I gasp a jagged aahhh as my hips gyrate in a tiny motion to snag his fingers just the right way. With my hands clawing at the sheets in frustration I whimper, feeling deprived of that one precise touch that will send me flying.

The muscles in my legs tense, straining harder with every second he denies me, my whole body quivering from the instinctual pursuit. “Please Christian,” I plead; the sound of my breathless sob muffled by the raging torrent of my blood.

He withdraws his tongue to speak, instantly making me regret that I spoke, “Tell me what you want baby.”

I’m beyond caring, my inhibitions stolen along with my sanity, “Touch me! Please, make me come!” Mercifully the husky words torn from my raw throat does the trick. Christian stabs his firm tongue into me, forceful and as deep as he can go. I moan in pleasure, my body rushing right to the edge of reason, poised for my shattering fall.

The final nudge I so desperately need comes from his hand. The heel of it presses into my pubic bone, the pressure intensifying the ripples as they start. The rapid glide of his fingers, aided by the copious cream I’ve gushed, run over my explosive bundle, stunning my senses in quickening throes of toe curling sensation. I issue a long, loud curse as the pleasure quakes through me, Christian slowing down only enough to make it last.

When I find myself I’m in Christian’s arms, his clothed front to my naked, sweat slicked back. I’m replete, liquefied, my body exhausted and still quivering from the exertion. He kisses my neck, a possessive arm curled around me, anchoring me to his comforting form. “We have to talk baby. Were you planning on going into the office tomorrow?”

Through my orgasm induced daze I don’t notice the urgent undercurrent of his quiet request, but I do feel the hard swell of his straining erection pressing against my behind. I fling a limp arm backward in an attempt to stroke him, “What about you Mr Grey?” I mumble drowsily, almost giggling at the improbable thought of round three for me. I can barely keep my eyes open.

“Tomorrow,” he promises cryptically in my ear while he moves my wandering arm back to my front. “Say we can talk in the morning and you can go to sleep.”

“Mm-hmm,” I agree, a niggling worry just bleeding into my mind before sleep yanks my consciousness away.

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Tuesday morning I wake with a start, disorientated in a tangle of sheets, and not surprisingly, alone. The first hit of adrenaline jolts me upright as the pieces of the night before comes together. I remember Christian’s mood, the mind-blowing but very out-of-character attack on my body, his request to talk, and strangest of all; not giving in to his obvious arousal.

Panic lashes like a whip over my grated nerves, the residual concerns over recent events is obviously closer to the surface than I realised. My low self-esteem has me so conditioned that I immediately comb through the course of yesterday to find a reason for his rejection. Coming up empty does nothing to loosen the tight knot that’s twisted my stomach despite my inner goddess pointing out that he bestowed on me two earth shattering orgasms.

I pull on a pair of yoga pants with a matching tee, not wanting to face him in a flimsy dressing gown if he’s mad. Tentatively I leave our bedroom, my scattered emotions fleetingly touching on a vague thought – could there be another reason behind the wicked application of his sexpertise, one that went beyond the obvious gratification it brought me? I’m forced to dismiss the notion when we round the corner in the passage at the same time, almost bumping into each other.

I get no morning smile but instantly he bands his arm around me for support. Looking up I find his troubled gaze, the sight of it has my heart plummeting into my shoes. I can’t help the shock widening my eyes when his expression alone is enough to convey that something is very, very wrong. Before his clouded stare cuts away I catch a glimpse of the contrition they hold, the usual bright grey dull with it. My breath jams in my throat as my blood turns cold with dread.

“We have to talk,” he says, his voice strangely devoid of any telling sentiment.

I nod numbly, blinking back the tears that have no business spilling. “Chris?” I ask with an unsteady, broken croak.

Christian places a hand in the small of my back, the light pressure steering me back the way I came. “He’s had breakfast, he’s fine. Gail is with him.”

He ushers me into our bedroom before turning to lock the door behind him. Meekly I follow him to the sitting area where he takes a seat on the sofa. With a quick tug of my hand he pulls me towards him, “Come,” he commands as he leans back against the armrest. Still skittish I take up the seat between his legs, my back to his front. Without wasting any time he secures me with both arms as they cross over my chest to hold me in place.

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My inner goddess is smiling serenely, taking the full body contact as a positive sign, but my subconscious is arguing that the embrace is more like a prison. I, on the other hand, feel way too uncertain to make a call either way.

I jump in his arms when he starts to speak, his measured baritone low and even beside my ear, “I want to tell you something. You’re not going to like it, but I need you to make me a promise first.”

I’ve no idea what he’s about to share, how on earth can I promise anything without knowing what I’m getting myself into. “Christian, I don’t know…”

Abruptly he cuts me off, “Just agree dammit!” he insists; his arms becoming a crushing weight as they clutch me closer.

It’s disconcerting that I can’t see his face. The way he’s positioned me keeps me from gleaning even the smallest clue from his expression. Nor is the situation conducive to slaking the slowly building fear that’s currently eating away at my faculties. “Okay,” I breathe, notwithstanding having my thoughts trapped in a loop of wild speculations, not one of them a desirable notion.

“Promise me you won’t run,” he grits at my acquiescence, the edge of his desperation unmistakable, hitting me in the gut like a punch.

Oh no! Oh fuck! I baulk at the possible implications, the cold grip of fear, at least in my mind, only a sentence away from becoming full-blown horror. “I promise I won’t run,” I relent, the whispered words falling from my paper dry mouth.

He relaxes his grasp as the tension leaves his arms, “Thank you,” he says simply before taking a bolstering breath. I’m grateful when he starts straight away, “When you asked the detective about the flowers last night it got me thinking. Both Taylor and I agree that there’s a strong possibility that David wasn’t the only perp plotting against me.”

As if my body wasn’t tense enough my muscles stiffen further, the shock like a jolt to my system, “You think he had someone working with him?”

“No. We believe that there’s a second suspect completely unrelated to David. Your observation about the flowers was very insightful, and it’s led me to believe that I’ve made some serious errors in judgement where this case is concerned. I’ve been so caught up in holding on to you, so desperate to keep you and Chris safe that when the neatly tied-up package of David presented itself I was overeager to accept it as fact without looking too deeply into our unanswered questions. Questions like the one you raised with the detective.”

Even though the idea of another maniac on the loose should scare the crap out of me my mind snags on the part where his fear of losing me is impairing his discernment. It hits my guilt button, bringing out my insecurities in the worst possible way. The shame always comes with terrible feelings of worthlessness that I seem powerless to stem. Because of our threat and the fear that went along with it Dr Flynn and my sessions has mostly been about controlling that fear, but now I wish we had spent the time exploring the tools to help me to cope with the things that previously wrenched me away from happiness.

“I agree with you that it’s unlikely that David would have gone to the effort to send you the flowers, we also know that the flowers are related to the botched sniper shot and that the shooter wasn’t a professional hit man. We feel that this points to Jose but the other loose end, the Dom/sub contract and the playroom photo that was leaked to the blog seems to have Lincoln’s stamp all over it. Needless to say that security will be back in full force and I’ll be insisting on your cooperation.”

“Yes, of course,” I say with an absentminded frown, once again only truly hearing the mention of Jose. I was so relieved when he was not involved because I dreaded the guilt that would have come from that. “But…” I stammer, “But I recall Taylor saying that Jose was an unlikely suspect. He said that he didn’t believe that Jose had enough motivation to go as far as attempted murder.”

I hear Christian sucking in a sharp breath before exhaling slowly, “Yes, we’ve had a development on that front.” Again his arms tighten around me, as if to brace me against the news. “When I found out that Jose left you a month before Chris’ birth I lost it.” He pauses, leaving me to listen to my heavy beating heart. “Please understand Ana I missed you so badly. I was so desperate to be with you, the thought of him leaving you, and that with his “child” on the way…” I feel him shaking his head in disbelief just as fresh waves of shame crash over me.

Suddenly I know what’s coming. I had my suspicions when it happened though I’ve never asked Christian outright. My thoughts start to race, only taking a moment to catch-up to his confession before it dawns on me: if Jose knows that Christian beat him up, he might very well want revenge.

“I hired someone to teach him a lesson. I had someone beat him up.”

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138 thoughts on “Chapter 42

  1. Vanessa says:

    Aaaggghhh, that’s it? Loved this chapter and want more…ended on a high….have to wait a whooooollllee week, 168 hours, 10080 minutes??? Booohhhoooo 😦

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  2. aturner0530 says:

    Another great clif hanger and the suspense continues! Thanks Monique and Happy Easter.

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  3. Sheila Hall says:

    Wow, talk about exciting, that was just great, loved every minute of it. Thank you Monique. Now it all starts!

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  4. Sheila Hall says:

    A Happy and Blessed Easter to everyone.

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  5. Janien Meissner says:

    Well, that was another amazing chapter! I loved it, must read it a few times more I think! What is going to happen now? I wonder, how does this story fit into your ‘normal’ life? I keep myself busy with this story and a few others and think it is a much at times. But you are something else! And I am so glad! The thing that always gets to me is the love between them, it makes my toes curl among other things…..lol
    Have a happy Easter and keep the writing going please!
    Xx Janien

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    • Monique Lain says:

      I love curling your “other” things… LOL! Love that you love Meander! As far as the story fitting into my normal life is concerned, I write on my off periods during the day and of course, at night once the family has gone to bed.

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  6. Audrey says:

    Gaaaahhh!!! Cliffy at dawn…. .!?! Seriously?!?…. How can i sleep now??

    Have great Easter 🙂

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  7. grublue says:

    Another great chapter! It’s plotted beautifully. And yes, Monique, this chapter explains a lot. I understand Christian’s motivation completely now. Nevertheless, I still don’t believe José’s the real perp.

    Hmm, Christian is apparently not that keen on babymaking right now…

    I hate-love the part where Christian holds Ana tight against his chest, with her not being able neither to move nor to look him in the eyes. I suffer from a minor, situational claustrophobia, and from this point of view this scene made me very uneasy.

    Happy Easter to you and your family and to all blog followers!

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    • grublue says:

      Oh, and there’s something I forgot to mention: I love how Taylor reacts to Christian as a friend, because that’s what they are, despite the formality. I hope they’ll get past this formal barrier one day.
      I guess you know there’s an excellent fanfiction from Taylor’s point of view out there, and I love that you write him differently. I guess that we all pereceive the big picture similarly, but differently when it comes to details and more specific character traits. The same goes for any other major character in the books.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Oh I understand about the phobia, that would be really unpleasant. more explanations to come, some of it hopefully enlightening… 😉 Thank you for your comment, lovely as always to get your feedback! xx

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  8. Peg says:

    As my Dad would say ….”eye, eye, eye, Ac-a-leva!” Wow so many subplots coming. I totally understand Chris’s hold on Ana. He was embarassed and ashamed to have her look into his face when he told her about Jose. I still think Jose has some revengeful plot planned and who is this girl that he is dating who is a “dead ringer for Ana.” That sends up some red flags.

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    • Peg says:

      Also Ray would have shared with Jose Sr. about Christian and Ana’s 2nd marriage. BUT, I think there are going to be major fireworks and power struggles when Christian and Ana begin the legal paperwork to change Chris’s name from Rodriguez to Grey. So many future chapters to look forward to. Thank you Monique for being such an exceptional writer! I look forward to Fridays all week. Happy Easter.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Love the comment Peg, thank you! 😉

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    • Sylvia Bayert says:

      I’m only now reading this series. Didn’t Leila, Christian’s ex-sub look like Ana? And isn’t she studying art? From the beginning I suspected Jose and Leila. I didn’t believe his response to Ana’s email apology.

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  9. Maggie says:

    To steal a line from Mr. Grey, “Oh Monique, what are we doing to do with you?” You just so love to torture us, don’t you? So, I loved this chapter from the different points of view. Like grublue, I too love the relationship between Taylor and Christian, even if they won’t admit it 😉 I am ‘on the fence’ with the Jose/Linc thingy. The hint at Leila leads me to believe Jose has some part in this and though I could understand his need for revenge where CG is concerned, I still think he wouldn’t willingly hurt Ana. You’ve certainly given us lots to ponder in this week’s tidbit….just wish it wasn’t sooooo long till next Friday – UGH!
    Happy Easter to all…we are still awaiting spring in New York! 🙂

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  10. 1klkelly says:

    Whew! Christian’s emotions have mine on a roller coaster reading this. Love the lovin’ ;-p

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    • Monique Lain says:

      LOL! So glad you commented on the loving, the comments have been very thin on that. I wonder if I hid it too far in the middle of the chapter… 😉 Thank you for your comment, love hearing from you! xx

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      • Maggie says:

        Ok, so lest you worry — we ALWAYS love the lovin’ and this one was particularly enviable 😉 Sometimes I think it’s really too bad that people who bash this story haven’t read it – it really isn’t just hot sex – we could get that with straight on porn – it really only works because the love story is sooooo compelling. At least that’s my take.
        How many days till Friday??? 😉

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  11. Trina M. says:

    love it.. def keeping me on the edge of my seat.. just when i think that it couldnt get any better.. it does..

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  12. carla says:

    oddio mi lasci cosi senza fiato!!!mentre leggevo sentivo tutta la disperazione di christian!!! adoro le emozioni che mi dai monique sono cosi intense cosi forti che aspettare una settimana sembra veramente tanto!!! pero ti prego ti prego non allontanarli piu 😦 odio quando sono distanti l’uno dall’altra amo quando affrontano insieme le difficoltà e questo che fa di loro una coppia forte 😉 grande monique un bacio kiss

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Oh Carla, I’m so glad that you feel my words. If you ever get nervous about things not working out read Christmas Meander and Valentine’s Meander. That’s bound to out your mind at ease.. 🙂 Thank you for the lovely comment! xx

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      • carla says:

        monique ho letto tutti i tuoi racconti tutti tutti e sono tutti cosi incantevoli amo molto la tua scrittura non smettere mai che sei bravissima a trasmettere emozioni!!! BUONA PASQUA MONIQUE A TE E A TUTTA LA TUA FAMIGLIA BACI…

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  13. Hazel says:

    Happy Easter Monique from sunny SA… Thank you for another great chapter with yet another cliffhanger!!! Your story just gets better and better evey week… Thank you cant wait for next week..

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  14. moire says:

    WOW!! Great chapter – so look forward to Saturday mornings. Plots within plots – and oh those cliffhangers – wonderful
    Great Easter egg YUM !
    Happy Easter Monique – hope you eggie smegs don’t melt in that heat up there in the NT LOL 🙂

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    • Monique Lain says:

      LOL! No here we buy plastic eggs to hide and then swap them for choccie ones, they would never survive being in the garden, even for a couple of minutes. Glad you enjoyed the chapter! Thank you for the review! xx

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  15. Jenny says:

    Another brilliant chapter !!! Well done!!

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  16. Roslyn says:

    I am wondering if Ana was being honest with CHRISTIAN. She did say “Jose frightend her when he would get angry b/c Ana would not give into him sexually.” Perhaps he became obsessed with her ( the enormously blown pictures, taking advantage of someone when they are drunk doesn’t signify respect nor love.) Jose new that she only loved Christian and took the opportunity to believe that he will change Ana’s feelings/mind and she would eventually bed him. He took every eventful moment to convince her to be with him, that he is there for of she is not with Grey again, knowing full well that her heart belonged to Christian. I am wondering if he beat Ana and she hid that fact from everyone knowing that he would get a beat down from Ray. She probably felt that she made him do it and accepted the abuse until she made him leave before the baby came (a reminder of Christian). There are too many directions to take. I still don’t get why she didn’t just give him the name Steele rather than Rodriguez. He left her a month before for goodness sake. He can be the perp, he had resentment towards Ana and he had a strong averging towards christian because he had her heart. Let’s face it, Jose could have malice in his heart and intent, no one wants to be made a fool of.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      For me, when he kissed her in the first book I never felt like he would take it too far, I just think he had a moment where he couldn’t deny his feelings any more but of course Christian overreacted like only he can. I think Jose hoped that because she told him that Christian rejected her and the baby that it would be enough for her to get over him. I think, over time, a man so in love with a woman he realises used him must make for a very volatile situation. I think he must’ve been very frustrated and he might even have felt like a fool for falling into her trap but I don’t think he would ever physically hurt her though I can see some very fiery screaming matches from his side. If she gave Chris her name then Christian would have been suspicious, remember he was keeping tabs on her. Love the detailed comment, thank you!

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      • Roslyn says:

        Hi Monique, happy Easter! Don’t get me wrong I do like Jose, he was part of extraordinary trilogy which I totally am obsessed with {l need some sessions with Flynn myself.:-) } You are a brilliant writer on you way to having a book published. I do need to say that in the first book FSoG, Jose did not stop from forcibly trying to kiss Ana when she said, “Jose , no I PLEAD. I DON’T WANT THIS, you are my friend.” If Christian wasn’t there how far was he going to go, until she would threw up in his mouth?hmmm, as I recall, Jose did stop only when “Christan said,”I think the lady said no.”. It didn’t sound like CG got carried away. Yes, Christian does get carried away but I believe it is only to protect her and Christian did not force himself on her. Ana does know how to let herself be known to CG and she will do what she wants. I would love to have a Christian myself with all his protectiveness, I wouldn’t have to do things for myself. There is a thin line to cross and yes because of feeling ridiculed and having stored anger, it makes me believe that he (Jose) could have acted along with David and a third person. There is so much to look at in many angles and I am glad you are writing the story. Thank so much for writing. Do you think thèy will go to Aspen?

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        • Monique Lain says:

          Ooohh, I’d love to do a bit of Aspen, I’ve not given it much thought though. Your comment is so interesting. Thank you for that. I’m beginning to see that we have a vast range of views under the readers about Jose and his behaviour that night. Do you mind if I post the question on the blog? I’m very curious to see what the response will be.
          Yes (deep sigh) overprotective CG in FSOGis very romantic…

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  17. SusanW says:

    Wow — apparently Taylor is much more sensitive and introspective than his demeanor would indicate. No wonder Gail fell for him — that’s pretty hot. When Taylor and Ana talked in the car after the sniper event, it was the first time he had ever said anything that gave an indication of the depth of his feeling for Christian. To hear all of this in Taylor’s own thoughts makes it really clear that he not only takes it as his responsibility to protect Christian’s physical safety, but he is also willing to try to help him with his emotional well-being. And God bless him for talking to Christian about giving Ana more information! I still think this is one of their biggest issues. The most important thing Christian can do to protect Ana (and their son) is to arm her with all the available facts. He doesn’t seem to get that when she’s begging him to give her information, but he does seem to see the wisdom of it when it’s suggested by Taylor. That’s a bit troubling in and of itself.
    And then there’s Christian’s apparent mission to impregnate Ana on the first try. I’m not convinced that they should be doing this so soon. I understand their emotional motives — her guilt and his feelings of having missed so much — but I think their little family needs a bit of time to settle in together first. Poor Chris — so many huge changes in such a short time for even a resilient four year old. I think both Ana and Christian should be meeting with Dr. Flynn. This was a really great chapter, Monique — lots of depth. Thank you, and Happy Easter!

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    • Monique Lain says:

      I agree, he needs to let go of his fear as she does of her guilt but as we all know, it’s very hard once you’ve had your heart trampled on. Christian will do well seeing Flynn again. I also agree on the baby thing but I think Christian’s desire for this is true to his character. Ana knew that it was too soon but I can imagine that it’s quite hard to tell a man like Christian no! 🙂 An awesome comment Susan, thank you! 😉

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  18. Jane Jones says:

    Wow x

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  19. Katherine says:

    Wow seems I was completely wrong with the mid week teaser!
    Taylor’s pov was fabulous I love the relationship between him and Christian and so glad that Christian has enough faith in him to trust him to deal with the threat.
    I hope that Ana doesn’t over react to Christians news and understands why he acted like he did.
    As usual another marvellous chapter
    Roll on next week x

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  20. Deb says:

    Mo……
    There are just no words for your story telling…
    You amaze and amuse me..
    Jason and Christian…such amazing friends, even it they do not realize the fact that they are true friends!
    Jose……I can see this going so many directions, so I will just leave it to the master.
    Christian’s intense need of and for Ana……yikes! I wish we all could have that!
    I find myself almost….talking to them, you just make them “real”…. I find myself hoping this story continues forever, then realize, that at some point, you will want your life back……what will become of my Christian and Ana!!!
    You, Mo, just make me happy, hopeful, sad, anxious, red faced, and just plain entertained!
    Please…..keep it coming.
    I adore you………
    xoxo
    your bestie…..

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  21. Vicki says:

    Another fantastic chapter! Thanks and Happy Easter!

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  22. tisha says:

    OH Miss Monique i have fallen in love with your writing just have to say loving the friendship with christian and taylor love the fact of all sub lines but reading comment’s is so exciting i have to put this out there for all who is thinking about jose and possibly it being and exsub that jose girlfriend might be but lets remember that the girl friend is a friend of kate’s so miss monique i cannot wait to see just were does kate and elliot fit into this whole mix and there coming home soon will be a definate hanger for a while i see. But also want to wish you a wondeful Easter. Love your passion for writing plz never stop you are awesome.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Thank you for your awesome comment Tisha. I appreciate the review. Just to clear one thing up, Ray casually mentioned that the girl that Jose was dating was someone Elliot knew, not Kate.

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  23. Ana says:

    Ohhh…interesting? Where did we learn that Jose’s girlfriend is a friend of Kates? I always thought he was going to be tied to Elena or Leila…Chapter went by in a second but I’m sure it wasn’t shorter we are just “reading faster” waiting for the “next big thing”… I love how Christian has to be contrite and love how he goes back to Ana and tells her even the part where he had Jose beat up. If Jose doesn’t know his father sure will and the fan that mentioned how Jose abused Ana is also spot on…He always treated her badly so she should “now” fess up to Christian that he “scared her” etc…and I still don’t get why she named Chris rodriguez (except no one would know he belonged to Christian so it would protect him on some level). Let’s also keep in mind that Ana knows how to shoot and kickbox – this is going to be good!!

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    • Monique Lain says:

      HI Ana, love the comment and yes, Ana sure can take care of herself! Just a correction, someone Elliot knows, not Kate, Just to clear that up. Also in one chapter Ana mentioned that she was frightened of how angry Jose was at her but he never resorted to actual violence. Thank you so much for leaving a review! xx

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  24. Kaz says:

    Great chapter.. I could feel CG’s emotions. He is struggling to keep a lid on it all! Loved his time with Taylor.. They have such a unique relationship, and the respect is so obvious on both sides… He still has that fear that Ana will bolt, made me think back to Taylor’s little chat with her ! This has got something to do with Jose’ s girlfriend being Leila.. At some point Ana will remember that conversation with Ray and click… It can’t be an accident that Leila found Jose! The girl was in love with CG , and as we know that can never be switched off ! Can’t wait for more… You are making us wish our lives away longing for Fridays.. Lol !

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  25. Kaz says:

    Ps.. Picture was so hot ! Went so well with their hot hot session !

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  26. Sarah says:

    I look forward to a new chapter every week with excitement and dread, I know the new chapter will tease me with dribbles of new information and insight and then leave me screaming for more! I can’t wait!

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  27. tracy5678 says:

    Ahhhhh….we are finally going to get to the truth of the matter about Jose, Leila, Linc, and the pics…..RIGHT??? I know you wouldn’t think of torturing us and making us wait, or distracting us with any kink…. would you now? I love the trust and respect between Christian and Taylor and how Christian and Ana are maturing and growing together. Hmmm… I just thought of something…in FSOG, Jack tried blackmailing Ana while she was pregnant. In Meander, she fled before that happened. He’s still out there. What happened to that scoundrel??? I’m sure he still holds a grudge. Looking forward to my “Friday Fix” next week. Have a Happy Easter!! 🙂

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Me? Torture you? With waiting, and cliffies and unresolved issues? Plot turns and dead ends? No, NEVER! PAH! LOL! For sure am I going to torture you, it will be no fun without it… 😉 I addressed Hyde in a previous chapter CG told her that he kidnapped Mia and that when they (Taylor,Sawyer and CG) found Hyde they had to pull CG off Hyde because he almost killed him. Hyde is currently in jail. Love the comment Tracy, thank you so much! 😉

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      • tracy5678 says:

        oops…I forgot about that…I’m on chapter 20 now…need to keep reading…I didn’t forget about the hotel, the pearls, the bathroom Taylor had to guard ;), the hot tub, the mirror, the bench, the “honey, we need to talk scene”…lol…wonder why??? Jeez… it’s getting kind of hot in here… 😉

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  28. Mary says:

    That was great !! Can’t wait to see how it goes with Jose 🙂

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  29. Melissa says:

    A. Maze. Balls!! Loved it!!!

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  30. Mrs. G says:

    “…I watch his determined gate, his strides lengthening with desperation to reach me.” Good stuff! I didn’t miss the lovin’! So much to think about in this chapter. I’m beginning to get that suspenseful feeling again. So glad CG has told Ana and will let Taylor take charge. I believe he still has plans for the baby-making! Never forget…CG always has a plan! Lots of good stuff coming…I can feel it! Great jan as always, Monique! Happy Easter!

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  31. DianeG says:

    I get such a warm, glowy (not sure if I spelled that right, but you get my meaning) feeling when I read your chapters. Loved Taylors POV. I want some men like that in my life (deep sigh). The way you capture their emotions is so fulfilling, I get so pulled in; I feel like I’m in the room and living each moments along side them. Bravo to you girlfriend!

    Now, has anyone actually tried the jasmine bath oil….cause let me tell you, THAT shit is fan-fucking-tastic….mmmmhhh. Makes me want to take a bath and daydream about Christian three times a day ;D

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Whahahah! Love it! Well, that’s certainly good to know! I used to buy a brand that was aimed at lovin’ and I must say that it did make me feel all happy and tingly but it’s not available here in the sticks. It had Jasime, Ylang-Ylang and Sandalwood – I think. It smelled divine and sort of put a bounce in your pounce if you know what I mean… 😉 Love the review, thank you!

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  32. Monica says:

    Loved the chapter. Thank you, Monique. Happy Easter everybody. XOXO.

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  33. Diana says:

    Monique, Monique, Monique, OMG!!!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! Really do you
    literally want to give me heart failure????? LOL!!!! This Chapter is of course brilliant!!! When I said keep the luscious stuff coming, you sure did listen…and came full steam with results!!!! WOW, WOW & more WOW…….you are so spot on when you go in for the kill with your superb writing! You NEVER miss a beat in how you execute each Chapter better than the one before it!!! Just when we think, hmmmm what can Monique do that will surpass the last Chapter well I for one will not doubt you!!!!!
    The way you laid it all out with CG explaining to Taylor his mishap then how he was just so open in how he felt at the time he set Jose up!! Then once he and Taylor spoke, his reaction to Ana was explosive, literally!!!! Loved it…..Monique, I could go on & on, but all I’ll add is this, your ending sure wasn’t expected…talk about left hanging & left bereft…………………..more please……..you’re such a fantastic writer that when you take pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard), you literally nail it without reservation!!!!!
    Thank you so very much Monique……….
    I for one cannot wait for……..~~~{{M*O*R*E}}~~~
    (Yes Monique, MoRe of everything…lush, lust, love, sex, happiness, desire, tension, craziness…etc……….) Exhausting to wait you know, lol
    Happy Hoppity Easter Monique to you and your family :+)
    Until the next Chapter my friend…………………………

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    • Monique Lain says:

      LOL! (Blush, snort, giggle!) Thank you! I appreciate the fantastic review and love that you’re so excited about it, it’s very inspirational. Makes me want to type faster! That’s nothing short of a dream comment! 😉

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      • Diana says:

        ;=)))) It’s a “True Comment” you are so deserving of it Monique!!!! You are very inspirational and a fantastic writer/author!!! When you chose to put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard, you chose right!!! I cannot imagine in my wildest dreams that I could be responsible to so many fans that actually depended on my next “Chapter” as the do you! You’ve achieved so much with this FSOG-CPOV……..I applaud you immensely as I await for the, “MORE!” :+)

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        • Monique Lain says:

          Love it babe! Thank you. It is a little weird for me to think that readers actually wait for the next chapter, surreal really but I guess I’d be doing the exact thing if I didn’t write it… 😀

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  34. DianeG says:

    Hey Mobabe we want more babe! And by the way Happy Easter, take some time with your family, hunt for Easter Eggs, and have a good family meal. That’s an order ! In my best Christian Grey demeanor, 🙂

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  35. HenryCavill4Fifty says:

    Loved Taylor’s POV. Shows his loyalty/friendship toward Christian. Love Christian’s vulnerability, his need for control and his raw passionate desire for Ana. Wonder if she’ll tell him she had a feeling he was involved in Jose’s beating?

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  36. Dawn says:

    You are so talented!!!! Another great chapter!!!!

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  37. Smudge says:

    Monique,
    I hate to throw a wrench in your story but was thinking…when Ana left after she found out she was pregnant, wouldn’t Dr Greene have contacted Christian when Ana didn’t show for her prenatal appointments ?? Then he would have know it was his baby not Jose’s…..

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    • moire says:

      but Dr Greene didn’t contact CG when Ana missed the appts for her injections and then it was oops too late – but a good thought tho’

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    • Deb says:

      Here in Illinois, the privacy laws would prevent any contact with anyone but the patient…….although Christian does have his own set of rules!! lol…..

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    • grublue says:

      Medical confidentiality, I’d say. Goes for billionaires like CG as weel. 🙂

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Hi Smudge, no worries. Thank you for the comment. It helps stay on my toes. (I know this is not your question though I’d like to clear it up none the less) Firstly nobody knew she went to see Dr Greene. Se was on her way to the parkinglot but before she even left the hospital Dr Greene stopped her, so as far as Sawyer was concerned she was still with her dad. From that construct I don’t think it’s far fetched to say that Christian never bothered to ask the doc because he simply had no reason to. I think, considering Ana’s desire to get away from CG she would have persued every avenue to ensure that he couldn’t track her and that would almost certainly include contacting the doc and, at very least, letting her know that she would not be seeing her again. I don’t know about the States but unless you have an actual appointment that you made and then missed I’ve never had a doctor contact me to ask me why I haven’t been in to see them. I believe they just assume you’ve found someone else and get on with the rest of their patients. I hope that helps. Let me know 🙂

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  38. Smudge says:

    Christian seems to have all the connections….didn’t think HIPPA would stop him !! lol

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    • Monique Lain says:

      I agree, I mentioned in a later chapter that he did get hold of her medical records with the details of their son’s birth once he found out that Chris was his son. It may not have been legit but he would still find a way if he knew where to look.

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  39. Alma Aceituno says:

    Monique,

    Wonderful chapter! I am impressed and very excited about finding this website. I can’t sleep trying to figure out what Ana is going to do after she found out what Christian did. Although she had her suspicions is not the same as having him confess.

    Thank you again,
    Alma

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  40. twinkie55 says:

    Monique, I hope you had a great Easter holiday with your loved ones. Thank you for remembering us, your fans and addicted readers of your blog and posting during this time. I am reading at two levels right now, reading the Meander from scratch again – slowly,while I wait for the new posts (it helps my sense of loss and longing). Now not to repeat what has been said by others I believe Jose is a potential perp, period. Sometime earlier Ray mentioned that Jose’s girlfriend is a dead ringer for Ana, I think. If so, that may be Leila and she is also an artist. So I think that Leila, now healed, might have shared things about her past with her new lover. So Jose has other reasons to revenge the women he love; Ana and Leila. It would also be typical of a man to fight back. I also think Jose is not that nice a friend; remember when CG was missing how he was holding Ana and saying he is there for her. I bet he was hoping CG did not return. I do not trust those quiet nice no backbone guys. Why did he agree to marry Ana when he knew she was carrying CG’s baby? I am going to stop right here, before I lose it with Jose’s opportunistic and cowardly behavior. If. He loved Ana he should have pursued her openly and not pretend to be just friends.

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    • DianeG says:

      Well alrighty…I was thinking the same thing on the Leila tip. That they met more than likely in some gallery; and Jose was attracted to her because of her looks so similar to Ana’s. And as the relationship became closer truths and secret lives were revealed. Dawn breaks for Jose and so does his mind. Damn, another woman he’s attracted to in love with that freakin’ Christian Grey. Bested again.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      I did, thank you very much and you’re welcome re posting over Easter, I relish the extra time I can spend with my story, re writing and all of that. I like where you’re going with your thoughts on the chapter though of course you know my lips are sealed… 😉 Good to hear from you!

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  41. Danielle says:

    The girl Jose is seeing has to be one of CG’s ex-subs & that’s where the contract & photo came from. I can’t wait for the next chapter 🙂

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  42. Deanna says:

    Don’t know if this has been mentioned previously, but from an aside comment made many chapters ago, I have felt that Jose’s new girlfriend is Leila. I think …… that she is the connection to the pictures and the contract. Could be my mind running away from me! What a lucky girl Anastasia is ….. the Christian lovin’ in this chapter was yummy! Looking forward to tomorrow!

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  43. Kathy says:

    Just found your page on Tuesday finished reading the 42 chapters this morning. You are a savour, the chapters had me up til all hours reading and I absolutely love your twist at the start, please tell me there is loads more to come and have you any original work I can find to keep me at bay. The story line is soo juicy I am enraptured. Love love love what you have done.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Hi Kathy, welcome and thank you so much! I appreciate your kind words. I unfortunately don’t have an original story out yet but there are some one shot/short stories in the sidebar to tide you over and yes lots more to come. 😉

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  44. Luana says:

    Monique this chapter is fantastic….i nave no words to comment tour work ….simply wonderful !!!

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  45. Meadow McGee says:

    I love how you add photos with the story. 😍

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  46. APT says:

    Hi,
    I´m finding very difficult to go to sleep since I found this blog. There are 2 reasons for that: first your kinky writing is very…ehm… engaging. Second, you have put a lot of plot´s layer into the story and it is a lot of fun to discover those! This is a great fan fiction!
    My only concern is that Ana is crying way too much for my taste, and (as in the original book) everything is happening way too fast.

    But, hey, who am I to criticise? 😉
    I´ll keep reading and reviewing.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Hello there. Thank you for your feedback. Happy to keep you… entertained 😉 As for Ana, I hear you, but consider the horrible thing she did. It must be pretty hard to get over. I felt her guilt as I wrote.

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