Chapter 49

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The searing connection of our lovemaking leaves us spent, panting when Christian withdraws, falling back onto the bed beside me. Dissatisfied with even the smallest distance between us he pulls me into his side, fitting me to his form. He kisses my head, but the gravity of the moment doesn’t lend itself to words. When our racing breaths slow down I catch him staring at me, his expression still baring the enormity of what we just shared.

I sense the weight of it around us, he’s overcome, so touched that it moves me to tears, but it’s the last thing I want to do. Affected as I am myself, I feel it should be an utterly happy moment. I smile, doing the only thing I can think of to lighten the mood. From beneath my head I grab the pillow, watching him, watching me, his eyes turning bemused as a little frown forms on his brow. Lifting my pelvis I shove the pillow beneath it, elevating my hips just like Christian’s collection of baby-making websites explained to do after sex.

I sink my teeth into the kiss-swelled fullness of my bottom lip, fighting the giggle trying to escape when his look turns to surprise, my own amused face telling him that I know all about his little illicit baby-making searches. After a fleeting second of bewilderment a sheepish grin cracks over his face.

He shakes his head, chuckling, “You got me.”

I give in to my welling giggles, letting them spill, relieved at seeing the ever mercurial shift of his emotions, “Baby-making research eh?”

Propping himself up on his elbows, he hovers over me, looking smug, “Uh-huh, I wasn’t about to let this opportunity slip through my fingers.”

Before I know what’s happening he captures my wrists, pins my legs with his and tickles my sides.

I squirm and yelp, giggling uncontrollably, “No! Stop!” I snort, trying to roll away from his persistent fingers. The gleam in his eye alone is proof that he’s enjoying himself way too much to stop.

“Stop!” I squeal again. “I’m trying to make a baby here!” Finally, with my eyes streaming, he relents to my breathless protests.

He lets go of my arms, his hands coming down to cup the top of my head, breathing hard, looking young and carefree and happy, “Yes,” he whispers, “and I can’t wait!” He nuzzles his face between my breasts, “I want to hold his tiny body against mine, looking into his face to see which of our features I can pick out. I want his tiny hand to curl around my finger. I want to watch the first time you hold him close, helping him latch onto you. I want to see Chris’ reaction to getting a lifelong friend, a brother.”

Moving words from my excited husband, but despite the beautifully romantic notion, and his absolute enamourdness with the idea, my mind just can’t help hearing the repetitive he in his words.

Reaching up, I run my fingers along the side of his handsome face, choosing my words very carefully, “I’m excited too. I want to share all of that with you, and Chris and our families, but there’s an equal chance that this baby, when I do conceive, might end up being a little girl.”

Even though he hides it well, the change in his pallor gives him away, “I know,” he says a little too forcefully, giving me the impression that the idea of a daughter might scare him. “Or her,” He corrects himself, his hard swallow audible as his Adam’s apple bobs up and down.

I give him a reassuring smile. We have time, I think. Once I’ve conceived and we learn the sex of the baby, he’ll adjust – hopefully.


Sunday is a deliciously lazy day for us, just the three of us spending time together. Christian is impressed with Chris’ progress on the piano, and I enjoy listening to them while I prepare our lunch. Only by the late afternoon, with Chris engrossed in an animated movie about a red racing car, do I get the opportunity to ask Christian about his meeting with Taylor, but I regret it the moment I do.

Sitting on the breakfast bar stool, his whole body stiffens, just as a black thundercloud settles over his head. Making sure that Chris is out of earshot he looks back over his shoulder before turning his serious gaze to me, the slate of his eyes take on a steely shade.

“All the staff from the Bellagio we could interview checks out, but there are two that we can’t seem to track down. For now, that’s a dead end if it doesn’t bring us closer to finding out who leaked the fact that we were there and to whom.”

I nod, my mind taking in his words, but I sense there’s more to his story, the change in his demeanor not equal to a problem we’ve been having a while. I wait, watching him war with himself about spilling the rest of the beans that has him in such a tense mood.

Fusing his inscrutable look with mine he pushes both hands through his hair, “Josè is playing hard ball with Chris’s paternity change.”

My stomach suddenly feels like it’s filled with lead, like the fingers of a ghost, dread creeps over my skin.

“But you are his father,” my thready, breathless whisper speaks of shock, and the fear I’d like to shove back in a box and forget about.

“Yes,” Christian agrees evenly, his complete focus on me, gauging, measuring. “He’s not going to let us change Chris’s paternity details without putting up a fight, and seeing that he isn’t really the father, that he’s never made any contribution to Chris’s upbringing, it’s very clear to me that he’s doing this to deliberately agitate an already volatile situation.”

The muscles in my belly closes around the lump of lead it holds, “Have you spoken to him?”

“No, he’s still out of the country but he’s enlisted a lawyer to waste our time,” he grits with no small amount of irritation. “The fact of the matter is he doesn’t have a leg to stand on, but Georgia’s laws require the consent of the named father for the change of paternity, and my subsequent adoption of Chris. He seems to be using this to complicate things for us. Once the paternity has been proven, the paternity order has been issued, and considering the background of the case – that you were divorced at the time of Chris’ birth – no judge will disallow the change, but his protest will slow things down considerably as we now have to go through a lengthy legal process.”

I know I must be pale, probably sheet white as I stare at him in shock and shame, “Why would he do that?” As the words leave my mouth I realize, deep within myself, that if what Christian just told me is true, then Josè is almost certainly our mystery perp.

Worry lines wrinkle his brow. Rounding the counter he’s quick to draw me into his arms, pressing my head to his chest, “I don’t know baby, slated, jealous, resentful, whatever the reason I want to be crystal clear on something.” Cupping my shoulders he pushes me back, staring into my watery, blinking eyes, “You will have no contact with him what. So. Ever. No-thing,” he enunciates slowly. “I will handle this.”

By his tone I figure he’s come to the same conclusion as I have, but I can hardly hear him properly, the sound of rushing blood in my ears jarring and loud, drowning out almost everything but the screams of recrimination in my head.

Unwilling, unable to make sense of it all just yet, I make a poor, last attempt at dispelling his news, “But I thought you said that the process of changing Chris’s name was almost complete.”

Again he holds me to him, tightening his arms around me, comprehending my reasons as well as the levels of my distress, “It should have been a simple matter, especially considering that Chris bears your last name – not his – but his contention has… complicated matters.” It’s easily the understatement of the year.

I am shattered, devastated at the implications. Until now I didn’t quite grasp how large the part of me was that still held onto the belief that Josè didn’t have this in him.

“Don’t go there baby,” he warns, sensing my withdrawal, the crush of my guilt. “In this, I’m just as guilty as you are. I refuse to let you dwell on something that’s done.” With both his hands slipping into my hair, he lifts my head, boring imploring grey eyes into me, “Don’t allow this to hurt us baby. Nothing’s changed, all the ugly is out in the open. I’m not going anywhere, no matter how complicated shit gets, and you sure as hell aren’t either,” he tells, no, commands me.

Gratitude is just one of many emotions washing through my overwrought system right now as I take in his point. We had our suspicions, and now they may very well be confirmed but it doesn’t change anything. Flynn and I have touched on the pointlessness of guilt so many times in the past weeks that I feel myself compelled to make an effort to let it go, and rather focus on fixing it.

Working my thickened throat into a swallow I nod, disconcerted, but at the very least hoping that I’m strong enough to withstand the inevitable storm. This whole thing only reiterates how important it is for us to air Christian’s BDSM laundry.

“I don’t want to hurt you or us, but you must know how sorry I am. I know you don’t want to hear it, but please, just tell me you know.”

“I know,” he breathes quietly, brushing away the stray strands that’s escaped from my hair tie, and in that way of his, where he always knows to say the exact right thing, he does, “and I know that I would do all of this again, have it happen just as it did, if it meant I could have you for the rest of my life.”

My inner goddess and subconscious swoon then faint while I stare wide-eyed and speechless at him. How did I ever get so lucky? My heart slows down; the gravity of his words, combined with his sincerity is undeniably powerful and oh-so healing.  Words of thanks gush into my mouth but they jam there, a sticky, sweet mess that I can’t begin to express.

Tongue-tied, I’m forced to go with something simple, “You are a wonderful man and I love you. More than I can possibly tell you.”

By his answering beam I can tell that, for him, I got it right. He’s so easy to please, so easy to love. Literally throwing my arms around his neck I try to echo my words with the crush of my body. Long moments pass before we break the hold of our embrace, touched but smiling, gazing into each other’s beaming faces.

“I want you to do the BDSM fluff piece,” I blurt, surprising myself.

Instantly his face turns stony, “If this is the guilt talki…”

I press my finger to his lips, shushing him, and shake my head, “It’s not. It’s the best thing for us.”

He regards me for what feels like ages before he speaks, his voice quietly measured, “I don’t know baby. I would rather risk every cent and deal, every share and portfolio before I risk us.”

I rest my palm on his chest, feeling the reassuring pump of his heart, “And that is why you are so precious to me, precious enough to want this threat gone. Once and for all.” Even I’m impressed with the solid sound of steely conviction in my tone.

He covers my hand with his, holding both of us close, “Let’s discuss it, and when you have the full outline of the plan the publicist suggested, and you still feel you want to go through with it, I’ll do it.”

“Okay,” I agree, “sooner rather than laters baby.”

He grins at me giving him his own line, “I have something that will fill that smart mouth of yours Mrs. Grey.”

My girlish giggle turns to a blushing one when his eyes darken, scorching and sinful, his lids growing heavy.

Oh my!

With his thumb and forefinger he pinches my lip away from my teeth’s nip. Looking back over his shoulder, he chuckles quietly at Chris staring at the TV screen with rapt attention, no doubt thinking about our interrupted kitchen counter encounter.

“Hhm,” he hums, “better hold that thought for later.” With his bristly chin he nuzzles into my neck, scraping against my soft skin with the stiff hairs.

I shiver, momentarily trapped by my thoughts caught in a reel of flash-backs featuring my handsome husband.

“Let me show you the publicist’s proposal,” Christian’s clipped, professional voice reconnects me to the moment, leaving me blinking, watching his back as he retreats.

I shake off my little fantasy, and try to brace myself for the details of the plan.

A trice later He places his laptop on the counter, and pulls me to stand between his legs as he takes a seat on the stool.

He rests his chin on my shoulder while he explains the plan, “Obviously the details were kept to a minimum, but this is the plan he came up with.” He taps the screen, opening a document. “The idea is to start the campaign with a small blurb, something in a main stream, large publication like FHM magazine. They could do a spread on famous Doms, just a paragraph per person, and would feature me as one of the celebs.” He makes air quotes around the word celebs, earning him a nudge from me in the ribs. Much as he’d like to avoid it, the world is fascinated by him.

“Ouch,” he teases, chuckling, rubbing his ribs before continuing on. “This will create a perception that though it might not have been widely known; the information was available to those who went looking for it, not some big secret.”

I nod my head, already seeing where this clever path is headed.

“Then a high-end publication, something like GQ,” he kisses my temple, presumably because I suggested it, “would pick up the story from there, and run will a full two or three page spread.”

“I like the idea of putting the information out there, in a small bite first, before rolling the whole thing out,” I say, trying to wrap my mind around all the possible angles.

“Yes, I do too. He also suggested that I include you in the article with GQ, to keep it clear that I’m into married kink now.” Lacing his fingers with mine, he brings up our arms to just below my breasts, hugging me to him. I can hear the smile in his voice.

“Married kink huh? As opposed to kinky fuckery?” I tease, turning to face him. “The ol’ ball-and-chain holding you back huh?”

His smiles his breathtaking, panty melting, full HD smile, “Can’t think of anything I’d like to be held back by more Mrs. Grey.”

I can’t help the answering beam splitting my face. His joy is like sunshine to me, “Well then, I’ll be happy to hold you back as much as you like.”

With complete disregard to our son sitting not twenty feet away he kisses me, taking my mouth with the warm abandon of his velvet stroking tongue.

Groaning he comes away from me, “What you do to me Mrs. Grey,” he breathes in the low timbre that announces his arousal.

For a minute we stare at each other like fools, caught in the spell of our mutual love before a little voice pipes up with a request, “Mommy can I have somefing to eat?”

Though I’m flustered, Christian takes it in his stride.

Smiling he scoops Chris up with a strong arm, “Hey champ, what would you like?”

Chris’s face lights up, the unexpected treat of unrestrained choice piquing his interest, making me laugh because I can see what’s coming, “Ooh, Ice-cream, and crunchy chocolate balls, and chocolate sauce, and milk,” he informs Christian beaming, thoroughly pleased with his selection.

Christian splutters, shocked, and fast realizing his mistake. Stumped he looks to me, his expression arranged in a silent plea for help. It’s adorable.

“Or,” I say, playing up my enthusiasm, “I can make us all pink milkshakes!”

Chris sucks in a breath, weighing up his options before clapping his hands delightedly, giving in to the allure of his favorite smoothie that’s a million times healthier than his choice, even though he’s blissfully unaware of the substantial calorie trade he just made. Wriggling he jumps from Christian’s hold then heads back to his movie.

Christian cock’s an amused brow at me, “Milkshakes?”

I smile, “Strawberry smoothie, but don’t tell him that,” I whisper, jerking my head in Chris’s direction, giving him a conspiring wink.

He laughs, slapping his thigh, “Ah. Good one Mrs. Grey. Good one.”

After the loud wiz of the blender I pick up the thread of our discussion, “So what would the GQ article entail?”

“Naturally an interview. He suggested a very similar outline to your idea, a lighter piece, humorous, focusing on the kinky fun. He insinuated that it was almost fashionable to be associated with something quirky.”

Cocking my brow, I rake my teeth across my lip, “Quirky?”

He holds up his hands in mock surrender, bemused, “I’m just repeating the conversation.”

“And will I have to answer anything or just go with you?” I ask, pouring our drinks into glasses.

“The interview will definitely be with both of us contributing, as well as an accompanying photo shoot. Something spicy,” he says with a smirk before it drops off his face completely, looking at me, “but not too spicy. You’re mine.”

In these moments were he reveals his vulnerability, I melt. I want nothing more than to soothe his concerns away.

Walking around the counter I take up my spot between his thighs, liking my fingers behind his neck, “Yes Mr. Grey. Yours.” When I see his features settle I take the moment to call Chris to collect his drink before sitting on the stool opposite Christian.

“So interview and photo shoot,” I scrunch up my nose at the idea of posing for a photographer.

“You’ll be stunning baby,” he reassures me, “and yes, that’s pretty much it. Then the proverbial cat will be out of the bag.”

I nod, mulling it over, “So no mention of the past, Elena?” I ask carefully.

Weariness shades his features, “No. Absolutely not. How you feel about this is the most important consideration for me, and second to that is the complete certainty that this interview will not lead to further digging into my past.”

For me, apprehension is never far away when this topic is on the table, and already I feel it now, tightening my stomach in a knot. “How can you be certain?”

A dark look flickers in his eyes, “Taylor and I have had a look at the possibilities, from all angles, loose ends, everything we could think of, even my adoption records. The truth of the matter is that there are really very few people that know the whole story, and all of them, bar Elena, are close enough to me never to betray my trust. My early childhood neglect; and the subsequent adoption are already well-known facts that have been researched to death by many reporters. They aren’t going to dig up anything else about that time in my life.”

“Okay,” I say evenly, “but what about the subs, and Elena?”

“Apart from what was stipulated in the contract, I never shared any personal information with them. They wouldn’t even have known about my touch issue, never mind the why. Everything they were and weren’t allowed to do was in the contract, no questions asked, no explanations given. As for Elena, she stands to lose too much to betray me, and what she can be considered as a crime.”

I regard him for long seconds, amazed that he’s come to that realization, before resuming my role as Devil’s advocate, “How would you handle the issue of you breaking the NDA where they are concerned?”

“I’m not breaching the NDA by saying that I’ve practiced consensual BDSM, only if I name them would there be an issue of breach, and obviously I’m not planning on doing that.”

“Ah. Of course,” I say, feeling a little silly. “What if a sub steps forward, offering an expose, a glimpse into being your sub?”

A wry smile tugs at the corner of his mouth, “Well, apart from coming down on her with a ton of legal bricks, what can she tell them other than that I played Dom, which by then will be common knowledge?”

Wow, he really did think of everything.

Nibbling on my lip I offer him the last question that weighs on my mind, “And how do you feel about discussing this with the parents?”

Dropping his gaze he looks at the counter, toying with his glass, “It has to be done. It will be way worse if they don’t hear it from me.”

Knowing him I can sense his insecurity, that ever present fear that their love for him comes with strings.

Reaching over I join our hands, making him look at me, “Christian, they might not like the idea very much but nothing about you has changed, you’re still the son they know and love. I’ll bet everything I own that it will be no big deal.”

“You seem certain,” he mumbles, the plaintive look in his eyes is haunted, breaking my heart.

I call on every ounce of confidence I have to give him a reassuring smile, “I am Christian. Absolutely.”

When he says nothing I fill the silence, knowing that for now, that subject is closed, “I like the plan Christian. You have my approval and my encouragement. I want you to do it.”


With the reporters still hanging about as well as all our security issues we chose our time away from home carefully, only going out when necessary. On Monday I meet my Pilates instructor, a woman of course, that gets patted down and searched by Cindy who is doing well on her first day trailing me. Chris’s piano teacher gets the same treatment, though I don’t miss her admiring glace at the young, trendy rocker.

By Wednesday I feel the walls of the apartment closing in on me, and I decide to take Chris to the GEH day care, and arrange a meeting with Julie. It’s great being in my office again, getting to know the other people that work for Grey Publishing, and of course to run things by Julie, face-to-face.

Straight after our meeting I get stuck into my work, making the changes we’ve just discussed and generally enjoy being on my own without the distractions that come along with working from home. Cindy is keeping vigil from my office door, she’s pretty unobtrusive, and considering the peace of mind it gives Christian, I’m happy for her to be there.

A knock on my door steals my thoughts away from the plot of my book.

Looking up I find Derek hovering, “Hello,” I smile, motioning for him to come in.

His black hair is shiny as silk, his bangs long, artfully arranged in fingers, like a raven’s wing, over his forehead. His green eyes always look mischievous, like he knows something the rest of us don’t. His prominent nose adds to his features, adding character and making his face unmistakable masculine.

He grins, “Good morning Ana. It’s good to see you. Julie mentioned she had a meeting scheduled with you. How did it go?” Instead of taking a seat he walks to the window behind me, looking out onto the city.

Swiveling in my chair I face him, “It went well thank you. She always manages to wheedle more from me than I think I can give, but so far, she’s been right pushing me and my tidy little comfort zones.” I smile despite myself.

He chuckles, looking over to me, “She’s the best,” he quips, his tone holding a clear note of admiration. He turns his head back to my spectacular view, “I love watching the rain over the city,” he informs me, indeed looking lost to the sight.

“I know what you mean, there’s something so… renewing about rain.” My gaze follows his, watching the rivulets race down the glass. “Oh, how did your date go?” I ask, remembering the end of a previous conversation.

In a gesture of exaggerated despair he put the back of his hand to his forehead, groaning, “You don’t want to know!”

I giggle, “Can’t be that bad! Is this the woman you met at the gym?”

He takes a few steps back, resting his butt against the edge of my desk, his legs stretched out before him, and his arms crossed over his chest, “Yep, that’s the one and it was that bad! She brought a photo album featuring all her nineteen cats in various outfits that she had made them. Even the male cats were dressed in frilly frocks. I felt my nuts shrivel just looking at them.”

I splutter, shocked by his blatant remark but also laughing, shaking my head, “Noooo!” I drawl conceding, “That’s bad.”

He huffs, “I could still handle the cats but she spent the whole night complaining about her mother. She must’ve told me countless stories about how they don’t get along, and what she says, and when she calls…”

He’s lament is interrupted by a clearing throat, drawing our attention. Looking around we find Christian filling my doorway, his imposing form dwarfing the space from his size and his stature. Impossibly handsome in a charcoal suit, hugging him with the bespoke lines he favors, the jacket of which is currently buttoned up.

He’s wearing his impassive look, the one I’ve come to recognize as his inscrutable mask.

Without waiting to be invited he strides in, holding out his hand to Derek, “Christian Grey,” he announces, his tone cold, measured.

Derek all but jumps off my desk, turning to face his boss’, boss,’ boss, “Mr. Grey,” he takes Christian’s proffered hand, looking a bit flustered. “What an honor sir!”

I watch the exchange, narrowing my eyes at my sexy, overbearing, jealous husband, speculating on the serendipity of his visit, “Christian, it’s lovely to see you. What brings you by?”

With that sinuous grace of his he closes the gap between us, before wrapping his palms around my shoulders, planting a firm kiss on my startled mouth, “Does a husband need a reason to come and see his wife?”

Oh boy! I’ve no doubt that he’s laying on the Alpha male act. The only question in my mind is how he knew there was a man in my office.

I would like to thank Susan and Debs2000 for their invaluable help with the name changing/paternity legislation! My story is also available on my blog in Italian and Portuguese, see my profile for the link.

Be kind and review, please.

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97 thoughts on “Chapter 49

  1. Amy says:

    oh I love it!!! can’t wait for the interview!!!!! 🙂


  2. caroline miller says:

    Brilliant soooo looking forward to next week!! x


  3. Sheila H says:

    Wow, thank you Monique well worth the wait, loved every word again. Honestly couldn’t you just slap Jose, move on Jose, Ana was never, ever going to be yours.
    I also like the plan to announce Christian and his BDSM involvement, but how will Ana manage with all the attention Christian will get – we will have to wait and see.
    Thank you again, another lovely chapter.


  4. Andrea says:

    Wow…I’m even nervous for christians ”coming out” announcement…can’t wait 🙂


  5. gmbizette says:

    Honey I just love your story!! Another fabulous chapter,so well written. You just draw me in and paint a beautiful picture.
    Shame on Jose, what a shit!!!


  6. Janien Meissner says:

    Very nice chapter! O, I do like the interaction between those two. I do think Ana is growing in so many ways. And there are a lot of things happening right now, Jose, the new baby, the bdsm-story! I love it and hope that this means the story isn’t over yet! Keep on writing Monique!
    Veel liefs Janien xxxx


  7. lrhopper93 says:

    Amazing…. Nothing more to say 😉 x


  8. Sharon says:

    Excellent. You are totally channeling these characters. I give a major wiggle everytime I get your update notice. (Then I have to explain the wiggle to anyone standing around…..that gets more complicated.) Why does it seem to me that the “small blurb” would be equivalent to a major papparazi tidal wave? And am I wrong to still want Jose to be a good guy, and that someone evil, mean, and/or nasty is setting him up? I feel bad that he finally got his Ana, but then didn’t have her at all. What a heartbreak that had to be.


  9. Amy F says:

    Great job as always Monique! Can’t wait to see how the interview plays out and especially how the family takes the news! 🙂


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  11. mia says:

    Ahh cant wait for the next chapter


  12. Jane Jones says:

    What another brilliant chapter x


  13. moire says:

    Again another brilliant chapter – and of course CG is still “keeping an eye” on Ana. It will be interesting to see where this goes with the BDSM story in GQ and who and what comes out of the woodwork –
    Enchanted yet again – makes me wish I could lose these extra 30 years I have to be young again (HUGE sigh!! )
    Thank you thank you Monique for tranmsporting us to this lovely fantasyland where we all hope to have/find our own CG!!!!!


  14. dlk6995 says:

    Monique, Monique, Monique……OhMyGoodness!!!!! ToTaLlY AmAzInG my friend!!!!
    When I start my comment out with 3 Monique’s, you know that the Chapter was totally H*O*T…….
    First Monique, like all Chapters, this one was also worth the wait and then some, lol I was still breathing hard awaiting the residual response of C&A’s lovemaking…..whew
    You totally stunned me with the Jose’ storyline!! I literally choked on my drink!!!! Totally took me by surprise…that is brilliant work Monique! The layout of the story is also very informative and I NEVER seen this coming, you sly thing, lol
    I must add that the Wednesday Teaser barely touched your storyline which was totally a fantastic surprise!! I’m still on a high from reading such brilliant writing. You’ve allowed Ana to grow up right before us and also allowed Christian and her to become equal partners, as it should be 😉
    I love the way they’ve had to learn to keep their hands to themselves with Chris present, lol They just cannot go to bed & connect the way they know whenever they feel the need! They’ve both grown up more than ever, however, I love that Christian hasn’t lost his jealous streak where Ana is concerned.
    The BDSM storyline is going to be superb I just know it is…Please Monique, make Elena pay for what she did to Christian as a 15 year old innocent boy that had well known issues!! Elena took 100% advantage of that boy and I think all your readers would love to see her pay her dues!!!! I know there isn’t a statue of limitation according to the law for what that evil witch done! It would be the icing on the cake! So please Monique think about that, lol
    As I anxiously await the final chapter(s) that you so graciously write, I am also saddened that it’s almost the end of a long-term relationship that I will miss dearly ;-( I certainly hope that you will continue this storyline with new baby, taking down of the Evil whore-Elena, Kate & Elliott with child, Mia finding her way with a relationship, Ethan settled into a relationship (with Mia-lol), Grace & Carrick enjoying their grandchildren……… know know what I mean Monique, right (*-*) You’re the best and there are no words to thank you as you deserve!!! ♥X♥X
    P.S. I’d like to see Jose’ get his due also!! He knew Ana would NEVER give herself to him!!! So for him to act like it’s his due for Ana involving him, he needs to be shown that you DO NOT mess with a child in any capacity other than good!!! Allow Chris his paternity! I could go on, but you know what I mean! thanks bunches


    • Monique Lain says:

      Hello friend! Thank you for yet another magnificent and touching review! So informative, I love the direction of your thoughts here. I so appreciate you taking the time to put them down for me and I’m so happy that you;re still with me, still enjoying the story! 😉 You sweetie you!


  15. Maggie says:

    I love the way you slowed this down to fill in the details we are all wondering about. All the subplots being attended to in this one…Jose, BDSM, Chris’ adoption…I know I say this every time, but you do so get these two. Every conversation, every interaction, every unspoken moment you write seems so natural, so perfect for these two characters. Don’t know how you do it – just please don’t stop 😉


    • Monique Lain says:

      HI Maggie, every now and then you need one of those bridging chapter eh? What a wonderful thing to hear from a reader, thank you so much for sharing that thought with me! 😉


  16. Getting a little bit excited now. Will be on email and PM all weekend considering the next chapter. 🙂 Brilliant, just brilliant.


  17. Jackie says:

    I loved this chapter. I am disappointed in Jose and in what he is doing in trying to slow down the name change to Chris’ last name. I can’t wait to find out if Ana is pregnant that will be exciting. Also I hope the article about Christian’s BDSM Life style will be done with taste. I hope Ana will be ok with it because this was her idea to put it out there so that Christian can live a normal life and not have people try to blackmail him. I am worried that Kate will be right and once women find out about Christian they might throw themselves at him and he might relent and go back to his BDSM lifestyle in secret and not tell Ana I sincerely hope not. I hope when Christian tells his parents that they understand but I also hope that Elena gets what she deserves because she took advantage of a 15 year old boy. I also wonder how Christians parents will react to that news.I also hope that Christian, Ana , Chris and the new baby can have along and happy life together. I look forward to reading the next chapter. Great work I enjoy reading.


  18. CG obsessed says:

    Another great chapter, exciting all around. Than You. Love the baby making scenes. Seriously adorable and I hope they dont run into infertility problems.
    Too bad about Jose turning into such a bad guy!
    Anxious and Not sure about the BDSM reveal. See all sorts of problems stemming from that disclosure for them so I hope they are up to the challenges. Still think its going to be weird when their kids grow up and find out about the parents doing BDSM. Not to mention the current adult relatives and employees that will find out. Not the best kind of fame to be linked with.
    Rather cute how CG just happens to appear when Ana is chatting with another male, and has to mark his woman. Im sure Ana will figure out that there are probably hidden cameras somewhere….for her protection of course, and not be pleased.
    Looking forward to next chapter. As always, you write so well. TY.


    • Monique Lain says:

      LOL! Yes, I like to spank mommy! Whahaha for that breakfast convo! 😉 Of course for her protection, has nothing to do with spying… 😉 Love the review, thank you!


  19. Miss V says:

    Wonderful chapter and definitely worth the wait. Love where the story is going and hope it doesn’t end anytime soon. Have a wonderful weekend catching up on the sleep you have missed with this last chapter.


  20. Kym says:

    Wow thats was Wonderful,


  21. Katherine says:

    Another brilliant chapter love jealous Christian
    I wouldn’t be surprised if he had cctv in Anas office lol
    I cannot wait to read the results of their baby making
    It’s funny how sometimes Christian is so lost when dealing with Chris
    Love this story I’m not sure if you are teasing us with the Jose angle just have to wait and see where you take us next xxx


  22. Mrs. G says:

    Ooh, that was good stuff! Like how Christian kept saying “him” when talking about their next child. So sure of himself in creating a son. I’m so excited for the BDSM article. I agree it’s a good move and I for one would love some detail about it in a future chapter. As they discussed the plan for it, I pictured their beautiful photo shoot. No doubt amazingly done and like Christian says “spicy”! I really enjoyed this chapter, Monique. Very vividly written! And just a side note….If I had an office at GEH, Mr. Grey could drop in ANYTIME!! Ana, you lucky b#tch!!


  23. Jenny says:

    Totally with the wait !! The chapter was fantastic as usual ! I love this story … I never want it to end !!!


  24. CMS says:

    Another amazing chapter, as always you keep me intrigued and waiting for the next one 🙂


  25. Melissa says:

    Well, you have certainly come back with a bang!!! 🙂 SO worth the wait. I can’t wait for Christian’s “coming out” and all of the drama with Jose to unfold. No one does it like you, Monique!! As always, thanks for sharing your talent with us


  26. Me123456 says:

    I can’t wait for the next one!!!!!! MORE< MORE< MORE!!!!! Seriously?! I'm so excited that I might just fly to you and extract you with your genius writing skills for the next chapters…..Ha!Good one Monique, good one indeed 🙂 and one more thing……..More!!!!!! Please:) xoxo


  27. Deanna says:

    How did he know there was a man in her office? He’s Christian – I’m sure there are cameras in there to watch her every move, right? Lovely chapter Mo – Can’t wait for the next! **Spicy!**


  28. Sheryl says:

    I just ran across your site the other day and now just finished chapter 49. I can’t wait for more! Very excellent!!


  29. M.A.C. says:

    Oh my Monique… I actually read this and then waited two days and reread it again…A seemingly peaceful chapter on the face but it kept me awake!! I could not stop thinking about the content and then it hit me I was mad as hell. Cause I never liked Jose and why is he still out of the country?? One follower above thinks someone is “forcing him to do it” that would be “Elena” maybe. Jose was NEVER nice and never treated Ana right. Then the BDSM story bugged me cause you know what Christian “did not think of everything with the dead flower delivery” and he will not think of everything now. It scares me. You have literally kept me awake with worry!! That is a gift by the way.
    You know what I think…at the end of the day when they go to get Chris at daycare he will be missing!! And I will be sick!! Then whoever it is can draw Ana to them through Chris…and Christian I like your “you will NEVER speak to Jose speech to Ana” but you wait Mr. Grey – not all things in life can be controlled and I know Monique is hiding a horrible
    lesson for you. Please don’t make it be their baby!! Girl all the way!! 😉



    • Monique Lain says:

      Oh how I enjoyed reading that! I love making you feel things, loving and hating and getting mad and crying and excited and involved. Thank you for your beautiful words! I hold them to my chest and cherish them! 😉


  30. M.A.C. says:

    Hey…Jose never even had sex with Ana for God’s sake!! Something is amuck!! And someone close to Christian will betray him!! See I cannot get this chapter out of my head…


  31. HenryCavill4Fifty says:

    When Ana put that pillow under her – I just about died. Such a cute moment. He is so excited. If she’s not pregnant he’ll be heartbroken. Love Christian and Chris! Can’t say it enough.
    Onto to drama. This thing with Jose is starting to creep me out. Eve if he’s not involved, him making it difficult for Christian is creepy. Still in love/obsessed with Ana?
    I like stalker Christian, so please…continue. Mwah!


  32. Sharon says:

    Hmmmm. Here it is Monday and still thinking about your chapter. I’d like to see Ana get suspicious about Christian’s sudden appearance in her office…and then have a little fun with him. She could call a series of guys into her office to “test” her theory and make Christian constantly race to her office….until he has to confess to his surveillance! (Just a little fun girl torture for our man! It is, after all, what we do best!)


  33. lindaday says:

    Love your story, such great writing. I hope Ana gets pregnant it would be good for both of them ,and Christian coming out to tell his story fantastic,can’t wait to see what happens,and Jose acting like that something is really wrong with him,thank you again for such great writing of this story,will be waiting patiently for your next chapter. 🙂


  34. Kym Thomas says:

    I Love it ❤ you’re writing is fantastic Wow Jose what will come of it, question though if he is not on the birth certificate and if Christian is his father wouldn’t a blood test prove all of that, as Jose wasn’t around when Chris was born so he would have no ties on him at all would he? Just a question l’m sure you would of researched it. Thank you once again l’m in love with this the characters in the story Wonderful read;)


    • Monique Lain says:

      Hi Kym, I have (or Susan did for me) and all will be revealed… 😉 Love that you love it! Georgia’s laws are a bit sticky on this issue, even if you can prove that you are the biological father you still need the certificated father to sign off on the change.


  35. rose says:

    whens the next chapter?!!?! im so impatient and this is such a amazingly different story to the original 😀 cant wait xx


  36. LLama Girl says:

    Monique, Apologize for coming so late into your story. I found your writing when you were already well along with chapter 39. I want to express my admiration for your writing and for you taking on this project which allows so many of us to continue enjoying Fifty Shades story and its wonderful characters. First I want to let you know that I did read James when it first hit the US in e version, and have re-read once and a little more. I can hardly overstate my admiration for what you have done, and are doing with this Fan Fiction, branching off of EL James’ original story.
    I, like many, am intrigued with her characters. I was captivated by her perfect rendition of what it feels like to lose someone you love at the close of Volume One.
    I want you to know how impressed I am that you have so thoroughly grasped James’ characters, and carried forth, with astonishing well done dialogue, another version of Ana and Christian’s story just as they very well might have lived it.
    Your writing is lively, moves right along. Your plot line unfolds magnificently.
    I easily and willing suspended any minor disbelief in why Anna left Christian, and fall right into your new version of the story. Lovely!
    You don’t have glitches such as repeating yourself, or plot pieces that don’t mesh with earlier pieces.

    (While acknowledging that the reasons Anna left Christian is a bit of a stretch of belief, it is not much more of a stretch than James’ original premise of how they got together in the first place! I am sure you are aware that the critics have been heavy on that aspect of the story – (i.e. “why did he fall for Anna specifically?”)

    It was delightful reading thirty some chapters over 2 or 3 days – until my eyeballs turned to sand. It is lovely to have new chapters to look forward to. And similar to your other readers, I might have an idea or two I’d put forward for you to consider developing.

    Mostly, right now, I would just like to ask, Can I help you? Can I help you with minor edits for spelling and syntax? I am an editor. I also have been sensitive and responding to other librarians and critics since the publication of James’ story who say “but it is so poorly written”. That really is harsh, and after a while I have come to say “You really have to overlook some things in a first-time writer, and just give credit to a great story and well drawn characters, and if some aspects are not your cup of tea, so be it, or let it go, and see what you can learn from it anyway.”

    I could copy edit, focusing on spelling and the minor things that interfere with smooth reading of your wonderful text: examples: bear (meaning hold up under pressure, or the animal) vs. bare (meaning naked),
    ads (Commercials) when you mean “adds” (in addition to)…adjusting plurals to align subjects and verbs… small things like that.

    I agree with the comments that you could/or should have your own book, and I believe you may have said you are working on one; and wish you success with that project. Meanwhile I will be delighted if you carry on with this fan fiction and if I can help smooth the edges just a bit, let me know.
    Llama Girl


    • Monique Lain says:

      WOW! What awesome feedback! I’m stunned and more than a little flattered by the compliment coming from an editor.No need to apologize! Oh the mistakes! I hang my head in shame! 😉 Here is the thing! I’ve done some rewrites, still I need to do a lot more, the earlier chapters are lacking and peppered with mistakes that I’ve learnt to correct in the mean time. English is not my first language, and it’s the first time in my life I’m attempting something like this. I’ve never even considered this as an option until now. UGH! for the homonyms! They drive me nuts because of course Word doesn’t see them as mistakes, and it doesn’t help that I read what I think I wrote, not what I actually wrote… I simply don’t see my own mistakes. Because this is a love job, anyone helping me will also have to do it out of love as I’m unable to remunerate. I have had some Beta volunteers and I’ve just received chapter one back. Having said that, now I have to find the time to review the changes and still try to get out a chapter a week while holding down a life! LOL! No excuse for tardy work and personally I feel extremely uneasy about the mistakes that I know are looming large as dragons in my work. A good friend called it literary spinach in my teeth! 😉 I love and appreciate your offer for help, and if it’s okay with you, I’ll keep that in mind. I would really like to give the Beta a go and see how we go… LOL! 😉


  37. Barb says:

    Great chapter, as usual Monique. I was just wondering what, if any, explanation would be given to Chris when the BDSM article comes out.
    Also I wonder if it could hurt the adoption process and whether Jose would be using that against them. Can’t wait until next week’s chapter, and the next and the next…, I just love it!


  38. LLama Girl says:

    You’ve astonished us so far with 49 chapters of good plotting, great characters, and sometimes wild sex. Probably you have many more up your creative sleeve. I don’t know where you will lead us w the Derek story: But at some point, would you want to consider touching back with yr own chapter 15 with Ana’s contract including “ Failure to comply with any of the above will result in immediate punishment, the nature of which shall be determined by the Boyfriend”? This was soon followed by her marriage vows in which she promises to obey. Likely one or both of these are still in force within the relationship (?)
    At some point, test Ana.2’s resolve to be her new stronger self & her determination to continue to reassure and give C. what he needs. Set up a few situations possibly deserving of punishment and have Ana stand up to her fears, maybe recognizing again her mixed feelings including arousal.
    Have Christian grow fairly assured that his controls are back in place and he’s beyond his raging anger and so can control what he deals out.
    Have Ana working her way thru accepting a spanking at least as severe as the first one C. dealt early in the relationship, or have her face up to her fears of cuts of the belt, and let C administer a just a few hits of that or some other not-too-scary implement.
    Excuses? under the guise of improving Ana, –
    one opportunity would have been Ana’s bad taste, bad judgement of wearing of the rather vulgar (as well as sexy!) Neiman Marcus red gown – first in front of his parents! And then out at a classy, fashionable event in the Greys’ city. – (even tho there was no contractual or other understanding betw them at that moment.)

    But from here out, the “cause” could be a security breach in which Ana takes chances (perhaps not w her son) but w her own safety as she chafes under the tight watch of the security guys. Have C. react to that with a suitable punishment. Punishment could be, as on the honey moon, not complete “orgasm denial” but a long run of frustration before relenting, or it could be something other you will think of, or it could be a return to an occasional corporal punishment of some bearable amount of humiliation and pain.

    Ana gets to test some limits, Christian gets to test whether he is back in control and can do a very modified dom thing within the loving relationship he has w Ana


    • Monique Lain says:

      Ooooh, the possibilities… So delicious to contemplate…Never fear, I do have things up my naughty sleeve… 😉 Thank you so much for the directional inspiration! 😉


  39. Ali says:

    U r amazin Thanks for for continuing the books this is all x


  40. tlance says:

    Great story! I can’t wait for the next chapter. Please keep writing.


  41. Happy Reader says:

    I just found this an love it !!! Monique, you are truly talented and creative ! I agree with other comments that you totally get /channel these characters!!!


  42. Camila says:

    hello, I started reading your story this week, I confess I’m in love! Text know this wonderful and very interesting story. but I was thinking about the publication of qg and no one will be questioning the reasons for their separation? I mean even with a child, which was registered by another parent pq was the separation? will they find that this lifestyle may have affected the two? I can make a suggestion? Ana can get pregnant with twins? I am and I love my twin brother in a unique way! waiting eagerly for the next chapter and sorry my english, I’m from BRAZIL and I’m using translator xoxo. Camila hugs


    • Monique Lain says:

      HI Camila, welcome! Thank you so much! Glad you are enjoying the translated version! That’s awesome! Oh you are not the first one to ask for twins! I’m sure poor Christian will expire of stress! LOL! Thank you so much for letting me know! 😉


  43. Cassie says:

    Need chapter 50!


  44. M.A.C. says:

    Best two words of my week… “it’s up”…


  45. I really like the fact that Christian is so jealous and protective. At least he’s a real man’s man.


  46. Jade says:

    Thank you, I just read the series just a week ago, twice. Found you and it’s been a wonderful continuation, albeit a different plane.
    Question, isn’t Jose’s returned email am admitting he knew she was already pregnant with her husband, Christian. Being the reason she came to him ?!


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