Chapter 53

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It doesn’t surprise me when Christian declares that he’s cleared his morning to join me at the obstetrician’s, and that he’s had the foresight to arrange an eager Mia’s to baby-sit Chris when she announces herself with a squeal of delight,  running up to my baby boy, and lifting him high.

Chris – of course – is equally delighted to see his favorite aunt, wasting no time to share his playing plans with her, and by the sounds of it, she’s in for a very busy morning. When she puts him down she barely has enough time to greet us before he drags her away, his little-boy voice pitched with excited chatter.

In the kitchen Christian captures me around the waist, pulling my back to his front, his lips brushing my ear before he speaks, “Mrs. Grey I cannot wait to see this little bean,” he breathes, splaying a warm hand on my lower belly.

I smile despite the small voice in the back of my mind that warns of being overly confident. With all of Kate’s pregnancy blues I can’t help the frisson of fear threading through my baby joy. This miraculous little life is already as fragile as it is strong – pitted against all sorts of odds that leave you marveling at the fact that any of us survive at all.

Covering Christian’s hand with my own I lean into him, “It is exciting. Hearing the baby’s heartbeat for the first time, looking at that grainy picture, and then wrapping your mind around the fact that there is a life growing inside of you, a life that you made. It’s…”

My words fade as a lump swells in my throat, my dry swallow protesting against the well of emotion that’s hit me from nowhere. Stupidly I went through all of that heartbroken and alone.

Stupid, stupid, stupid!

Christian’s arm around me tightens, like an instinctual reflex to my nose-diving mood, “Make it up to us now,” he whispers urgently, his grasp of the way my minds works as firm as his hold is on everything else in our lives.

Even the way he phrases it is intentionally designed to elicit my attention, issuing a challenge like that, and keeping me in the moment, here with him, and not off in the land of regret where I naturally want to go.

I’ve lost count of the moments like this I’ve had since that day in Miami. Of times when I’ve felt awash with guilt, flooded with feelings of worthlessness, yet here I am, in the arms of the man I love. And more importantly, he loves me back – blindly it seems. This is exactly the type of scene that Dr. Flynn and I have dissected to death, and now I hear his words rattling around in my brain: out with the guilt, and in with taking new paths, not building on the past, but building a future. Finally my many hours of therapy comes into play as my minds halts at the verge of its usual pattern of thinking, reconsidering its direction.

Focusing on the wonderful things I have, the second chance I’ve been given and what I can do to make it right, I take a deep breath, steeled to make it perfect the second time around – for Christian, and for us.

Turning to face him I cup the sides of his angled jaw to pull his mouth to mine. My lips meet his bearing the message of my determination. With a deep kiss I mark my commitment to stay in the here and now, and not to dwell.

When our lips part I find my husband’s gaze with a beaming smile, but his stormy eyes and slow blinking lids quickly has me biting my lip and squirming restlessly in his locked embrace. Involuntarily I shiver, thrilling in the way he shows me how I affect him. If the hard set of his instant erection pressing prominently against my belly wasn’t enough, his expression leaves me absolutely certain that he’d devour me on the spot if it wasn’t for Taylor clearing his throat behind us.

“Mr. Grey, the nurse is here,” he announces in that measured tone of his that never betrays an ounce of emotion.

Huh? Nurse? I wonder.

On his heel Christian pivots, facing Taylor with his normal, professional demeanor firmly in place, his lust-heated look shelved in an instant while I’m still colored with every shade of red, “Thank you Taylor. Can you please show her in?”

Christian’s mischievous grin finds my questioning brow when Taylor leaves to carry out his instruction, “I’m taking a rain check on the ravishing Mrs. Grey – just so you know,” he purrs, winking at me and squeezing a handful of my butt, “but I’ve arranged for the laboratory to send a nurse to do your quantitative blood test now so we can have the results by the time we see the Doctor.”

Oh! I think, taken aback only for a second before I’m forced to admit what a clever husband I have, always thinking ahead.

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Just as expected Christian has Seattle’s top Ob/Gyn at his beck and call. When we arrive at Dr. Malone’s swanky offices, conveniently located in a wing of specialist suites within the hospital, there is no waiting for us, no forms to fill out, just a friendly receptionist who shows us straight to the doctor’s door.

Dr. Sharon Malone is – of course – a woman, and reminds me of bake sales, of knitting cuddly jerseys, and comforting hugs when she stands up from behind her desk. Her short frame is chunky, her smile radiant and sincere when her eyes crinkle at the corners, only pronouncing the crow’s feet that I guess her fifty or so years of living has brought her. Her hair is short, chopped into a practical style and liberally striped with silver.

“Mr. and Mrs. Grey,” she beams, holding out a hand to Christian before giving my shoulder a matronly rub, “please, have a seat.”

She gestures to the two chairs facing her desk and I already like her. She seems more like a mother hen than a leading gynecologist when she shoos away our formal greeting, insisting that we call her Sharon, the familiarity probably stemming from a friendship with Grace.

“So,” she says looking over an open file on her desk, “I have your blood work here and we are definitely having more babies!” Catching my eye she gives me a happy grin, as if sharing news like this is a rarity for her.

So I really am pregnant, I think relieved. I can’t begin to imagine Christian’s disappointment if the home test turned out to be wrong somehow.

My attention is drawn away from the Doc’s kindly smile by my ecstatic husband’s out of character whoop of joy. Christian clasps my hand in his before he kisses the back of it, his grin almost as wide as his face.

“That’s fantastic!” he quips between kisses.

Sharon tilts her head, taking in the happy scene with a look of contentment on her face, giving us the space to savor our moment of joy.

The next twenty minutes is dedicated to going through my medical history and confirming the details of Chris’ birth that she already has on file. When the time comes for the physical part of the visit she ushers me into an adjacent room where I change into a light blue hospital gown. When I’m ready I lay down on the examination table next to the ultrasound machine.

Christian stands at my head, anxiously holding my hand while the doctor readies the wand, “As you are very newly pregnant we are going to have to do an internal scan if we want any chance of seeing this new little life. At very least it should show us the gestational sac, but it’s definitely too early to hear the heartbeat. That usually only starts around six weeks,” she informs us, keeping up the chatter to distract me from the cold entry of the plastic transvaginal ultrasound probe.

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Christian squeezes my hand in sympathy, though I’m not sure if it’s for his benefit or my own when I notice him looking a little awkward. I give him a reassuring smile, it’s not painful, it’s just cold and foreign, and despite the professional environment always uncomfortable.

On the screen a grainy grey picture jumps into life and I feel the doctor adjusting the angle of the wand just as I feel Christian’s grip on my hand tighten, and then we see it. A black blob amongst the sea of pixelated grey.

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I hear Christian gasp, “Is that it? Is that our baby?” He breathes, his tone low, reverent.

I tear my stare away from the screen and steal a moment to take in my husband’s awed features. He is so many things to me, but seeing him so excited, so utterly in love with this life we’ve made is overwhelmingly romantic. It touches not only my heart but the deepest part of my soul.

I guess he feels my eyes on him, the weight of my love for him when his gaze cuts to mine. I feel like shouting it but instead I mouth the words I love you to him, making him smile even more. He presses a quick kiss to my forehead before returning his attention to the image of our already dearly loved blob.

Sharon confirms what we already know, that I’m about four weeks along, and hands me the first picture of what I suspect will be many more if my husband had his way. I hold it only for a second before passing it to Christian, his eyes following it from the doctor’s to my hand with way too much longing to ignore. I hide my smile when he takes it, clearly lost to the magical powers of ultrasounds as he continues to stare – mesmerized.

When I’m dressed again I join them in her office section again where she goes through a list of do’s and don’ts that has Christian smirking. Of course Mr. Fifty-know-it-all has done his research and is more up to date with pregnancy protocol that I ever was.

I just know that we’re heading for a few bumps in our baby growing road but there is one bump that I want to avoid at all cost, and I ask my question at the very first opportunity I get, “Dr. Malone, uhm, Sharon,” I correct myself, “are there any sexual activities that we should abstain from?”

There is no doubt in my mind that by the end of this pregnancy Christian will have redefined overbearing with his protective instincts kicking into overdrive, but we both need to return to the Red Room, if not for the sheer pleasure of it, then for the final exorcism of the other women and the bad starts we’ve had there.

A twinkle in her eyes appears along with her kindly smile, “Nooo!” she flicks her wrist dismissively, “There shouldn’t be any issues having intercourse as long as you Ana, find the position comfortable.”

I nod pressing my lips together, not daring to look Christian’s way as I shift in my seat, unused to candid discussions about sex with strangers albeit doctors, “How about when the activity is a little rough,” I bleat, blushing for all I’m worth.

Her easy smile and no-nonsense replies keeps the topic from being completely cringe worthy, but only just, “Common sense is your best guide here. If you are comfortable being hoisted upside down and spanked with a Ping-Pong paddle then I say go for it, you can even use toys if you want, but the moment you feel breathless from something other than exertion, or there is pressure on your abdomen, or something causes discomfort then change what you’re doing. You’ll find your way around the expanding belly as long as you remain open minded and can get a little creative.”

Perfect answer! I think just as my blush deepens into what must be an awful shade of puce. I would smirk if I wasn’t so embarrassed.

Dr. Malone looks to Christian, her grin now positively lascivious, “You may be in for a treat young man. You should prepare yourself, second trimester pregnancy hormones could make your wife very demanding.”

Christian snorts his shock as the Doc gives him a very leery wink, looking utterly pleased with herself. If he was the blushing type we would be matching right now.

Armed with a magnetized list for the fridge at home of what I can and cannot eat, as well as a wealth of guidelines that I know Christian will be wielding at me on an all too regular basis, we leave the doctor’s on an all-is-well-scan high.

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Saturday late afternoon sees us getting ready for Elliot’s launch. My belly is a nervous mess thinking about sharing my pregnancy news with Kate, and because we don’t want to steal Elliot’s thunder we decided on telling Christian’s parents tonight, but privately, rather than making an announcement. The world will know soon enough, anything we can do to postpone the news coming out is another rare moment of privacy from the still lingering reporters outside Esacala.

Apart from telling Kate, tonight is also the night I’m claiming back the Red Room. After our talk with the Doc yesterday I was half hoping that Christian would take the initiative but I’m guessing that he’d rather the first move come from me, and I’ve decided to signal my readiness with a very bold move.

Of course I want to remind him how he felt being in charge of a scene, guiding my willing body to obliterating nirvana, but I think he does remember, only too well. My plan is nervy in that I want to show him how I felt, the pleasure my submission brought me. The delicious anticipation threaded with that tiny slither of fear for the unknown, and the heady, blood simmering sensation of your body being worshipped and utterly enjoyed.

Earlier, while Christian showered, I had a surreptitious check on Gail’s efforts to ready the long locked room. I sighed walking into the space now restored to its former glory – lemon scented wood polish and all. Quickly I added my own finishing touches; a set of long black sheer sashes that are made especially for gentle binding, massage oil, and of course a playlist for Domme Ana’s debut. Now all I had to do was to get Christian to agree to come and play with me.

I didn’t want to give away my game before the actual moment I lured Christian into the Red Room, but until then I was intent on driving him mad with desire. A lustful man was a compliant man I figured.

As the launch party is not a black tie affair I pick an elegant little black dress, cut to fit my curves and detailed with symmetrical lines that gives it a very subtle BDSM feel. It’s understated and demure enough to cover the racy black corset and lace-top hold-up stockings underneath. Both the corset and matching Brazilian- cut panties are black, the fabric opaque. I want the underwear to be teasing, to keep Christian wanting more, and for it to have an undeniable Mistress feel. Completing the ensemble is the highest pair of black heels I can find.

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My hair for the evening is loose and straight, and my make-up light but for the smudged, smoky shadow on my eyes and my extra-long lashes. My lip-gloss is lightly tinted with red, bringing a blush to my shiny lips.

Christian whistles appreciatively behind me just as I take in my completed outfit, looking dashing himself in tailored, charcoal-grey suit and a white, fitted men’s dress shirt. He’s left the first three buttons undone, revealing just a hint of his beautifully sculpted chest.

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Slinking an arm around my waist he pulls me toward him, catching my gaze in the mirror, “I’m a lucky guy,” he grins, looking the part.

Reaching up and back I curl my hand around the back of his neck, giving my sexy husband a seductive smile, “Hhmm, not as lucky as I am,” I counter, wriggling my behind into his groin.

With a large hand he stills my hips, his grip firm, but the change coming over him is – as always – instant, starting with his darkening eyes, “Keep doing that and there’ll be very little left of this pretty little dress Mrs. Grey,” he warns, all playfulness gone.

His low words coupled with his half lidded gaze does what it always does to me, it makes me melt, my heart skittering in my chest as goose bumps travel along my spine. He doesn’t press my hot buttons, he is my hot button. More than ever, I hope that for once he’ll trust me enough to let me take charge in the playroom, but I am fully aware of the risk I’m taking, and that this whole plan of mine can easily go up in smoke.

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The Willow’s Lodge is a stunning setting for the launch party. With the setting sun the building is bathed in hidden, golden spotlights, showing off the beautiful structure as well as the magnificent, surrounding gardens. The relaxed lodge atmosphere makes it feel cozy but the ample elegant touches speaks of class.

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We spot Kate and Elliot almost instantly, just inside the doorway, where they stand to welcome their latest arrivals with smiles and hopes for future business. Instantly our two person security detail melts away, giving us space but staying close and ever watchful. I give Kate a discreet wave as we pass, not wanting to take her away from potential clients but both of them excuse themselves from their guests to come over and greet us.

After a warm hug from Kate, she takes me by the elbow and guides me away for the five minutes of chat time she promised me. Cindy, I know, is discreetly following us, making herself blend into the background. While we walk away I look back over my shoulder, catching Christian’s eye. His reassuring smile goes a little way to ease my worries about telling Kate about the baby.

In our absence, he will be spilling the happy beans to Elliot. I so wish I didn’t have to do it tonight, at their party, but Christian does not want to wait to share the news with his parents, and it will be so much worse if she found out that I kept it from her, or worse still, she found out from someone other than me.

She leads us into an empty conference room where she instantly begins to babble excitedly, “I’m so psyched for operation Mia and Ethan!” she exclaims, her eyes bright with delight. “And he was only a little mad at me for “forgetting” to organize him a date! Now all I have to do now is have him at the door in time for Mia’s arrival. Did you confirm the timing with her?”

My smile feels brittle on my mouth when I answer her, “Yes I did, and she will also be coming clean to him tonight. Explain why she did what she did. It’s now or never for those two. They’ve gotta’ lay their cards on the table and see where it leaves them.”

“Exactly,” she says nodding her head in agreement, “and will you still be taking Ethan aside for a chat before Mia makes her big confession?”

“Definitely,” I quip, “I’m sure we can soften him up with the help of a little bit of perspective.”

She claps her hands and grins broadly, clearly on a match-making high before she inclines her head to one side, her friend radar picking up my slight lack of enthusiasm, “What’s wrong Ana?”

My stomach makes a quick flip when I try to arrange my mouth into a more sincere smile, “Nothing is wrong, but I have something to tell you. I know tonight isn’t the best time, but…”

“You’re pregnant!” she blurts, her eyes stretched wide as she grabs a hold of my upper arms, giving me a small shake.

For a brief moment I simply stare at her, wordless and unable to tell if she’s mad or glad.

“Ana!” She presses, impatient now, “Tell me there is another baby Grey on the way!”

Another few seconds pass where I’m too relieved by her reaction to confirm anything before she shakes me again, this time a little harder.

My mouth curve into a genuine beam, of course Kate would be big enough to be happy for us I think, scolding myself for being so anxious.

Slowly I start nodding my head before squealing an excited yes.

Kate literally starts jumping up and down before catching me in a bear hug, “Oh Ana! I’m so happy for you! I’m so happy for Christian! What did he say?” she asks, pushing away from me in order to watch my animated face.

Her joy sparks my elation, “He is ecstatic, beside himself. He just keeps telling me how happy he is. We had our first scan today!”

“Oh Ana,” she says again, but this time she clamps a hand over her mouth, muffling an anguished cry as her eyes glaze with the shimmer of tears.

Oh shit. Happy for us but sad for herself, I guess when I take her in my arms, wrapping her close and letting her have her tears while I stroke her hair, “Ssshhhh, I know. Let it all out,” I croon, feeling her body shake against me with grief. “I’m so sorry Kate. I didn’t want you to feel we were hiding it from you,” feebly I try to put into words our reasoning.

“It’s fine. I’m, I’m glad you told me,” she manages, stuttering through her shuddering breaths, “I, I really am happy for you. It’s the s.s.s.silly hormones,” she cries, explaining her sudden turnaround as she pulls away from we, wiping under her eyes with her fingers in an effort to save her make-up.

On the table beside us is a wad of paper cocktail napkins that I press into service as tissues, helping her clean up as best I can.

Again the change that comes over her is swift and dramatic, only showing up the powerful affect the fertility drugs has on her system. Looking at her now you’d never believe that she was crying a minute ago.

“Are you okay?” I ask carefully, not wanting to disturb the fragile hold she has on her emotions.

She snorts, “For now. Until the next ridiculous thing sets me off,” dismissively she waves a hand in the air, clearly irritated with the situation.

For the first time I get a glimpse of how hard her vacillating moods must be on her, and on Elliot.

“Come,” she says, all smiles again while threading her arm through mine, “let’s go have a celebratory mocktail, and I want to congratulate Christian!”

I realize that besides being there for her when it all becomes too much, there is little else I can do.

After a trip to the bar we find Christian still with Elliot. When he sees the jewel colored, decorated drink I’m holding he scowls, but I hold up my hand in a stop gesture to halt the protest that’s about to trip off his lips, “Virgin,” I say, pointing at the drink.

At least he has the grace to look a tad sheepish before he turns to Kate who is keen to congratulate him. Elliot is quick to take the opportunity to pull me into a hug, his warm words and best wishes welcome and appreciated.

We spend a few more moments with them before Christian drags me away to find his parents. I can sense the buzz of excitement humming through him. He’s eager to share the big news with the couple who took him in and ultimately saved his life.

When we can’t spot them inside Christian takes us outside, onto the beautiful patio that’s dotted with oversized wooden chairs and small groups of guests, many of which stop us to say hello to Christian.

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Carrick’s hearty laugh is what eventually helps us to find them among the scattered people. After a round of introductions the small clutch of colleges and acquaintances slowly melt away until it is just the four of us left.

Finally alone Christian pulls me into his side, draping an arm over my shoulder, looking from his mom to his dad, and back again with a huge grin, “We have some news,” he chirps, obviously delighted.

I hear Grace gasp as realization dawns but Carrick needs a nudge, “We’re pregnant dad,” Christian clarifies at his dad’s baffled expression.

Grace enfolds us in a hug, “Oh you’ve made an old woman very happy today,” she croaks hoarsely, a little overcome with emotion as she kisses us both on the cheek.

“Congratulations! You deserve to enjoy this journey together,” she says kindly, her words holding no recrimination as she looks at us both with love lighting her eyes.

“Thank you mom,” I whisper, touched by her joy for us.

Carrick moves in, slapping Christian on the back while shaking his other hand, “Well done son!”

“Thanks dad,” he says, accepting his father’s wishes with gratitude and a surprisingly coy smile.

Carrick is less formal with me when he folds me into an embrace, “It’s fantastic news Ana, you guys should come around next weekend so we and celebrate this properly, together, as a family.”

“Thank you dad, we would love that,” I say, looking to Christian for confirmation.

I take in their happy faces, their smiles so wide. Children, and especially grandchildren, have a wonderful way of bringing families together, of strengthening bonds. The new life bringing immeasurable joy along with it like a precious gift, and this child is no different. In the light of my past mistakes, this baby will be the glue that will forever seal the cracks of the broken hearts between us.

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93 thoughts on “Chapter 53

  1. Linda says:

    I loved the way you handled them sharing the news with Kate (poor Kate!) and Carrick and Grace. Well done.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Thank you Linda 😉

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      • Norma (Calif) says:

        I found your chapters last week and honestly have been so spell-bound reading them, I have failed to review and/or thank you. I’m addicted to Ana and Christian’s relationship and your work has totally captured my attention as I devour each chapter. Sadly, I’m almost to the end of them and wondering what I will do then! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

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  2. Hazel (South Africa) says:

    Oh Monique so worth the wait love, love, love it thank you.. Will come back tomorrow to see the update with pictures..♡☺♡

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  3. Janien Meissner says:

    O my! I guess everybody is waiting for the next chapter after this! Ana a Dom? I cannot wait! I had a laugh about Ana’s questions at the doctors, very funny! You do write a great story Monique. I am still writing my own story, writing and rewriting I must say. But we are finally having a summer here and I am on the beach all the time. Looking for inspiration of course…..lol! Have a great week! Janien xxxx

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    • Lynne says:

      I AGREE WITH ALL YOU HAVE SAID, BUT I WANT LONGER CHAPTERS THAN THIS ONE AND SOONER THAN LATERS!!!!!!!!!

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      • Monique Lain says:

        Wow Lynne, while I love that you like my story I would just like for you to understand the type of effort that goes into writing this, over and above a extremely full and pressured life. Sometimes I post a chapter at 4 am in the morning, pushing myself to extreme limits because I know that readers are waiting for the next one. The pressure is sometimes immense. I also stop a chapter at it’s natural end, I don’t chase a specific word number. I hope that makes sense. I hope you understand.

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Yes, that’s really what we do, we are not writers but rewriters… LOL! So glad that you enjoyed the instalment and yes, the beach is an excellent place for inspiration! *wink, wink!*

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  4. Sakeenah says:

    I like how the interaction between her and the doctor about the limits of sex, making sure Christian got the understanding it.

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  5. kris riedell says:

    Beautiful….simply beautiful and one of the best chapters…thank you!!

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  6. ash says:

    Great chapter, loved Christians response in seeing blip two for the first time, made my heart melt. He’s so excited that he’s carried away with everything. Kate’s reaction to the baby news was fantastic, back to how they were before Ana left all those years ago. Christian is just bursting with pride at telling Grace and Carrick about the baby, and showing Ana his true feelings and how much he wants everything with her. A romantic and heart warming story. Amazing writing just read the story from the beginning loved it. Keep the chapters coming always look forward to the updates.

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  7. Michelle Musgrave says:

    Another great chapter!! We went to a wedding at Willows a couple of years ago, great choice for Elliott and Kate’s event!

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  8. Olivia says:

    I hope Kate gets pregnant soon I feel so bad for her it’s the most devistating feeling! But I’m loving where your heading with it 🙂 keep up the good work !

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  9. Deborah says:

    Wonderful chapter! I’m so excited everything is confirmed, and I can’t wait for them to go back to the red room. I bet Christian will be hesitant, but will get into shortly afterward. I love how excited
    Christian is, but I’m still so sad for Kate and Elliot. As always beautiful chapter..

    Debs2000

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  10. Aaliyah says:

    Thank you worth the wait!
    Can’t wait to find out what happens with Mia n Ethan

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  11. Mrs.C says:

    Lovely chapter:)

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  12. Gwen says:

    As always a wonderful chapter! It is so exciting to see CG so happy he could bust!!! Hopefully Kate will be pregnant soon,she received the news graciously. Well done from Carrick!!! Good old boy network meaning you have good swimmers son!!!! LoL!!!
    Looking forward to the next chapter!!!!

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  13. M.A.C. says:

    Hmmm ~ I want to be happy about a “very warm & fuzzy” chapter we do need them as the “red room tsunami” continues mounting… Still people usually wait until 3 months to tell… so I’m hoping my stomach flips are for-telling the angst you have us in waiting for the “next flogger to drop” and not because there will be “blip” problems cause I could not bear that!! Hope you enjoy all the delicious planning for the red room chapter….;)

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  14. atterbury (Liz.S) says:

    Monique, you are a gift from above! You have given them the most beautiful chance to start again at the point they Previously lost their way.This time with the freedom from the ghost of CG’s past and the security of appreciated more mature love! Brilliant! Hope Kate and then Mia are soon to follow in Ana’s condition! The more Grey’s the better!! So sweet to see CG so happy! Me too! XX, L

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  15. SassyGurl says:

    Awww! Baby joy is always such wonderful news!

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  16. jeangb says:

    Well it seemed a very short chapter I read it far too fast. But it was lovely and sensitive. I know the up coming red room scene will be awesome. I wonder what Carrick and Grace will do when CG’s and Ana’s lifestyle is reveilled can’t wait for that either. You should stop your other activities and just concentrate on this as a week is an awfully long time to wait between chapters. I am selfish I know but you are just brilliant at this. Thankyou.

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  17. HenryCavill4Fifty says:

    What an exciting chapter. It’s real and Christian is ecstatic. Still hoping little bean splits into 2. Hey it’s fiction – go big or go home I say. LOL
    Poor Kate. She’s trying so hard. Welcome back. Hope you had a great holiday.

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  18. Fiona Fraser says:

    Well done Monique, As I’ve told you before you are a fabulous writer and the way you have redefined Christian and Ana’s continuing story so well is brilliant. I love this chapter. You never fail to surprise, especially Ana’s conversation to the doctor and they way she told Kate had me fighting a lump in my throat!! I know it is time consuming to do this, along with everything that life throws at you (Believe me I know!!) so, the fact that you keep turning out such a brilliant chapter each week for your fans is a testament to what a fab person and writer you are. Loving every minute of this continuing story. Keep up the great work and as always, looking forward to number ’54’. x 🙂 😉

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  19. Kym Thomas says:

    Beautifully written, I wonder if Christian will be going through all the morning sickness etc with Ana as some men do, that would be interesting, Curious about what Ana has install for the reintroduction of the Red Room looking very forward to that. Also cannot wait for them to tell Chris that he is going to be having a little brother or sister to love. I think the way you executed telling Kate was beautiful and thoughtful and Kate’s & Elliot’s reaction was lovely too, and yes IVF drugs make you react exactly the way you have described well done!

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  20. Maggie says:

    A little feel good chapter to get us to the other side, eh?! Ana’s sex inquiry with Dr. Malone was hysterical. Oh to know what CG was thinking during that exchange! This chapter was quite a lovely read but I feel the tension mounting for what’s yet to be – Mia & Ethan, Red Room, GQ article release, Kate & Elliott….there certainly is a lot of potential in each of those threads and I’ve no doubt you will make the most of each and every story line. Oh my – can’t wait for 54…

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  21. tracy says:

    I can “feel” Christian’s excitement looking at the scan. Can’t wait for him to hear the heartbeat for the first time, that always makes it seem so “real”. I too hope Kate get’s pregnant soon so that she and Ana can go through this together. Ana’s questions for her doctor were funny…she should try asking them to a male doctor, talk about blushing…lol See ya next week…in the playroom… 😉

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  22. Deborah says:

    Fantastic! I only found this blog yesterday and I finished it all today…

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  23. Patricia says:

    Great chapter loved the part with Kate and Ana

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  24. karen says:

    Loved it.. I was a bit worried how she would tell kate.. But their friendship is now back on track.. Let’s hope kate is next, so they can all go thru it togther 🙂

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  25. Dawn says:

    Excited about the baby but can’t wait to meet Ana “the Dom”.

    Well done as always!!!!

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  26. Ava says:

    Thank you so much for another well written chapter. It’s creative and I get so excited when you update, it’s so nice to read about Christian and ana together there’s to many authors on fanfic who kill Christian or ana, or cheating where they pair them of with different people. I wanted more of christian and ana together and you’ve given me that. Cannot wait for next chapter.

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  27. Marlene says:

    I loved how Christian sensed and stopped Ana’s negative thoughts about her first pregnancy — he is so caring and forgiving.

    I wondered, when Dr Malone said, … “we are definitely having more babies!” … was that a typo — or is it a hint that it’s twins?

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  28. Deanna says:

    Loving the sweet romantic aspect coming back into the story. So glad they will get to share this pregnancy together. As always, looking forward to the next chapter! Thank you for keeping this story going for us ….. sometimes we just don’t want the good stories to end.

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  29. Tarsha says:

    Great chapter, I enjoyed it. I have to admit now waiting week to week for a new chapter is going to kill me…lol. But, it was worth the wait, good chapter. I think it would be great for Ana and Kate to be pregnant at the same time, that will also give Kate and Elliott a reason to stick around. It would make for an interesting story for them to share experience together.

    The questions at the doctors office were very funny!
    Thanks as always Monique for sharing your gift 🙂
    Tarsha

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  30. Anita knowles says:

    Hey hey!! Well done Monique you’ve delivered again with flying colorsthank you thank you thank you is all I have to say!!!!
    Anita

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  31. fanny rebellon says:

    Definitivamente esta historia escrita por ti es preciosa, de comienzo a fin me encanta y eso que la lei a traves del traductor geogle al español, seria un sueño que alguien la tradujera, y lo que no he visto es que paso cuando el confeso ser dominante que dijo la familia? o ya lo sacaste y no lo he visto? gracias por escribir tan bien y ser tan romantica y amante al detalle unbeso desde venezuela.

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  32. Deb says:

    Brilliant, as always…….you just continue to amaze me…..
    The ultrasound, The Doctor, The questions….so endearing….
    I have no more words for you, your writing, this story, except one……
    PERFECTION…..
    Xx
    Deb

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  33. samantha says:

    I feel like these chapter are way too damned short. I always want more when I read this story

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  34. tj says:

    Awesome as ever, but looking so.forward to Ana’s plan!

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  35. Sheila H says:

    What a wonderful chapter, thank you Monique. I did wonder if there was going to be twins after the Doctor spoke, but the scan picture (at the moment) says only one baby. I hate this expression but I am going to say it anyway we will have to ‘watch this space’.
    Ana wanting to be in the playroom with Christian, the little minx! I bet when I read that chapter it will be smoking hot and I will have to lie down and cool off 😉
    Great chapter, glad you are back and I hope you had a good holiday, take care now.

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  36. dlk6995 says:

    MONIQUE, MONIQUE, MONIQUE…….WOW!!!!!.. Great Chapter as always!! Now I just have to say my thoughts: BRING ON the Red Rom of Pain!!! Lol…..undeniably a must………….Whew..back to reality for a minute! lol
    The way you explained the doctor appt., was great 😉 When the nurse showed up, I must admit that took me by surprise! But it is so CG! Haha……I felt like I was that fly on the wall, lol, the way ou took such care in explaining the scene 😉 TY
    Okay, as always TY for the compassion shown to Kate & Elliott that was so sweet & necessary with their situation! Grace & Carrick were what put goosebumps on m arms…..special! I seriously I cannot wait for the Playroom to be used…..it will be “get the towel night!”
    Please let Ana turn Christian OUT!!!! Make him want to be a submissive again in the RROP…….Oh My!!!! More please……I’ll have my extra supplies ready for the next chapter!!! SO happy this wasn’t the last chapter…..
    Ready for some BDSM………love to hear Ana be a Dom with her man!! Boy oh boy does Ana have a surprise for her hobby!!!
    Lastly: I loved this part greatly:
    Dr. Malone looks to Christian, her grin now positively lascivious, “You may be in for a treat young man. You should prepare yourself, second trimester pregnancy hormones could make your wife very demanding.”
    Until the next time….sigh….panting…..hot thoughts….BDSM..that’s what it is!!!
    Diana

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  37. kerecb says:

    Loved it…
    Can’t wait to ead what would happend with Ethan and Mia!
    Wantto see Chris reaction for his new sister or brother!
    Xoxo
    laters baby

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  38. christine says:

    brilliant loved it cant wait for more chapters soon i hope

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  39. Barb says:

    This was a great chapter. It’s nice to see Ana and Christian becoming more in tune with each other. I hope Kate gets pregnant soon, so she and Ana can be pregnant together. That would be awesome. Twins for either would be great too. Can’t wait for Ana the Domme. I appreciate your hard work in writing, and I’m sure re-writing, these chapters. You have such a knack. Damn woman!

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  40. M1. says:

    I don’t know if I missed it or not, but @ the risk of sounding catty, did Ana tell Kate about CG’s over the top research and the eating and the vitamins and all of that?

    I don’t expect her to fix it for her, she of course also can’t; I’m just saying if Kate was taking the same, sort of, “lazy”-ish or banal view of just expecting to get naturally pregnant then maybe she might have learned something from CG’s research.

    It would never hurt to just be honest or forthcoming I should say, with her and just pass on the information to let them pick on their own what things they think might be helpful to them in their situation…Ana could’ve given it to her as a gift and they would never even have to discuss it again if someone else says ‘Well, AS doesn’t want to get blammed (*sp), ‘yada, yada, yada’ – again, they could use it for a few tries, and or then incorporate it with the treatments at least thereafter if it didn’t work –

    I dunno, just my thoughts on the matter

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  41. Julia says:

    t elated with this book that you have written. I know it’s an extension of the trilogy but there’s something about thIs story that brings such joy to me that I can still hang on with something new and amazing from a different angle. I love that you started this story right when Dakota found out she was pregnant. I was wondering why Christian was at the zoo. I know he was having her watched. Why didn’t he try to get her back? I’m just babbling on because these questions just happened to pop into my head and I wanted to get it down before I forgot. As usual I’m always forgetting something and seeing that I’m on chapter 53 I should have brought it up 50 chapters ago
    Haha. I’m always anxious to get back to the story but I’m doing it through my phone and of course my battery is always running out that’s due to me being on my phone all the time for everything I do I mean EVERYTHING!! I’m just so happy for you and I hope that you are proud of yourself. This book is probably your baby. I was just wondering if you were going to or if you are a professional writer/author. I know that my comment here is all over the board but I was just curious how about you and where you’re going or what led you to write this. I know I’m digging a little bit too much. Thank you for reading my comment! and if anyone comments negativity regarding this book I just would not get it to why they would come to this conclusion. like I said I’m just elated that I was given a chance by luck to come across this book that gives me such pleasure and smiles. I’m having a feeling that I know what’s coming in the last few chapters and I really just hope I am wrong but I did see a comment that was crying at the end
    😥

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    • Deb m says:

      I love this story MORE than the original! Monique is fantabulous!

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    • Monique Lain says:

      Hello Julia, thank you so much. Your kind words as flattering. No worries with the questions. That’s exactly why I have the blog, so I can chat with my readers 😉 Christian was at the zoo to attend an environmental awards ceremony held in his honour (the posters Ana noticed as she walked around the zoo). Ana was there with Chris, the meeting with her tall, dark and brooding love a coincidental happy accident. He did keep tabs on her, that part was explained in the first chapter, but when she married so quickly, and to Jose no less, he believed her lie, that she didn’t want him anymore, so he stepped away, simply tracking her from a distance.
      Nope, I’m not a professional writer. Meander is my first attempt at creative writing. I started chapter one as a way to purge myself of my FSOG obsession. (I simply could not get enough, even after reading it 8 times through). My hubby encouraged me to post the chapter on Fan Fic, and that was all it was ever meant to be, but one chapter became two, and my reader base grew to crazy proportions, and before I knew it, it had become a big thing. It all just sort of happened. Shorty after starting the story, the Fan Fic site was going through stories with sexual content and deleting them. Naturally I was concerned that I would lose my story that way, so I started the blog, just for in case, but it turned out to me a much nicer forum and platform, and here I get to interact with my readers, which is a wonderful bonus. I still have it posted on Fan Fic, but I like it much better here 👍🏻

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